Prose competition


Prolitzer Prize for prose writing

Prolitzer Prize for Prose Writing, 2016

Winner, £200 and publication: Janos, by Kaori Crawford

Runner Up, £50 and publication: Fingerprint, by Marina Hatsopoulos

Runner up, £50 and publication: The Wind Calling, by Deirdre Shanahan

Kaori Crawford



They said that he had been in prison.  They said that he was born in Europe.  They said that he had Maori friends and went to their meetings.  He smelled of fish and sweat, dirt, and the smoke from his cigarettes. 

He sat on the wharf all day, by the broken-down ferries, and fished.  He threw the fish into a bucket by his side. 

I stood on the wharf, after school, and watched.

Eventually, after a couple of days of this, he turned round. 

‘Get lost.’

‘I just wanted to ask.’


‘Have you ever killed anyone?’

‘There’s always a first.’ 

He took the knife from his pocket and threw a fish-head at my skirt where it left a red stain, like the red rag of my hair, which the other kids sometimes tried to pull.  It left a red stain.  The knife had a silver smile and the strip of neck at the back of his head was deep brown, the kind of brown you get when you’ve been burned and the sun stays soaked in your skin, and the air smelled of fish, and the sea, and the wet wood and barnacles of the pylons under the wharf. 

In the distance, the dead volcano on the horizon, which had always oppressed me, lay stretched in the harbour like something heavy across the day.

His hair was shaved in places and long in others, as if he had tried to cut it himself, with his knife and a razor.

Finally he said: ‘Your mum owns the milk bar, right?’

‘Since my dad left.  But people like cafes better, these days.’

Janos took a drink from the can by his side. 

‘Evidence for the opposition.’ 

He had a ring like a silver skull, with diamond eyes, and black crescents under his nails and his nails were broken and different lengths, as if he had tried to cut them, too, with the knife.

That day, he let me carry the bucket of fish up to his shack on the hill.  Two cats, one moon-white and one grey, slithered out of the bushes and ribboned around his legs.

‘Can’t get rid of them,’ Janos said. 

He threw them a couple of fish and they bounded off with them in their mouths, which suggested one reason for this situation.

He sat down on the white plastic chair outside, moving as if suddenly older, and strained, and told me to put the bucket of fish in the ice box by the door.  He would sell them, tomorrow, he said.  Till then, they would keep; it wasn’t that hot. 

He drank beer and offered me a smoke.  I said kids didn’t smoke and he laughed.

‘Can I have your knife?’

He hesitated, then shrugged. 

‘Are you going to kill someone?’

‘There’s always a first.’

The sun burned on the clearing and the wind shivered the leaves, rattling them like the milk bottle tops in our back garden, like silver coins growing on trees in a fairy tale.  I thought of throwing the knife at a tree but thought he might take it off me then, so I lay down on the leaves on the ground and he drank.

‘I should get a radio up here,’ he said.  ‘Or something.’

‘How do you say your name?’

‘Janos,’ he said, like Yah-nosh. ‘But you can say it however you like.’

He closed his eyes. 

‘It’s a free country,’ he said, as if half-asleep. ‘So some people say.’

When I got back, my mother was sitting outside in the deck chair. 

‘What’s up with you?’ she said.  ‘You look like you’ve got a secret.’ 

It was late afternoon and she had closed the milk bar.  She was having a cigarette and the smoke hung around her head like a distillation of the yellow air, gathering at the ends of her yellow hair, like frosting.  The deck chair was faded from multiple summers and my mother’s hair seemed to have faded too, since my father had gone.  He lived in Hamilton, it was said.  Her legs were bare and they looked sharpened, or pared, as she stretched them out in front of her, in jandals, humming to something old on the radio.  The occasional car, passing along the main street, sent up suggestions of activity, like ripples.

‘I don’t have a secret.’

When I went to school, the other children raced around me.  I walked between them with my hands behind my back, as if on elastic.  When Miles Morrison, after turning a cartwheel, ran up and tried to pull my hair, I put my hand on his face and pushed him politely away.  He ran off whooping.  I walked on with a smile at the corners of my mouth, then suddenly raced to the end of the playground and back.  During interval, on other days, I went and sat on the hill above the school buildings, where, when I was younger, I had thought there were lions in the long yellow grass.  I sat in the long grass and felt the wind brush my skin, and the blades blew against my arms and legs like manes. 

After school I sat on the wharf while he fished.  The ferries carried passengers across the harbour to the city and the islands out of sight.  The black slope of the old volcano lay on the horizon like a guardian stretched across the path to the sea.  Some sort of taniwha. 

Sometimes Janos wore a green tiki which reminded me of those stories about taniwha and Maui fishing the North Island out of the sea, and sometimes he wore a necklace with a shark’s tooth.  After fishing he let me carry the fish up to the hut, and sometimes the cats – Polly and Malka – let me play with them before trying to scratch me and wandering away.  He said that Malka – the one who was most inclined to scratch – was named after one of his aunts, the sister of his father.  She was the dappled white one.  Sometimes he wore a paua necklace, with the paua in chips, like it was a fringe or a collar.  Janos rolled the cats around over his feet with his shoes off; he said he couldn’t feel anything, even when they scratched him and hatched the marks and scars on his feet. 

In the evening, when I went back, I would sometimes sit outside in the tree by my window and look at the sky, listening to the slight sounds of the village by night.  My mother sat downstairs in the kitchen behind the milk bar, listening to the radio and playing cards.  Sometimes she sat in the living room, with the television.

One day I asked Janos if he had caught the shark. 

He stroked his neck. 

‘That’s not the only way of ending up with a shark’s tooth.’

One night he came to the house after I was in bed.  I heard the voices and climbed down the tree to the back garden and watched.  I saw them there, dancing in the kitchen.  They were dancing slowly to the radio and my mother wore a faded pink dress.

After they had left the kitchen I ran up the hill to the hut.  The cats were nowhere in sight, probably hunting somewhere, and the moon lay in stretches across the dark clearing.  I found the bucket of fish and when I came back to the house, the lights were out above the milk bar.

I stood in the street outside the building and threw a fish at the door where it slithered down onto the step so that the next person to come out, perhaps in the morning, might step on it. 

Perhaps they would fall over.

Then I ran down to the wharf, past the far-flung streetlights, and stood in the dark by the sea.  The waves slapped against the wharf in the silence.  There were no ships to be seen. 

I suddenly jumped up and down.  The moonlight lay across the water and, underneath it, the sea was dark.  The sea was dark and blood-warm, and the currents moved under it, like muscles, like something stirring.  Like something stirring, and about to wake up.

Marina Hatsopoulos



After denying myself a gelato on economic grounds, I approached one of the phone booths that still spotted the streets of Rome. Stepping out of the booth was a guy with a straight nose and curly hair who looked like one of those marble statues out by the fountains. When I saw his Knicks t-shirt, I gave him a thumbs-up, but he seemed confused and asked me a question in Italian.

After a series of gestures, mangled words and misunderstandings, I finally came to learn that this guy—who looked like a David to me, because Michelangelo clearly grasped the essence of the Italian man—could help me make a free international phone call. This was great, since my parents had cut off my cell coverage after they found out about me dropping out of MIT. Same kind of tough love they served their subordinates on Wall Street. They were happy to let me embrace my Italian heritage as long as I didn’t give up my Manhattan aspirations, but I wasn’t going to get a Math degree just because I could. Certainly not to please the people who had lied to me my entire life.

The David beside me—the one made of flesh—gestured with his oversized fingers for me to enter the phone booth. It was a preserved relic—a connection to the past, just like the Colosseum and all the other archaeological novelties in Rome. I stepped out of the moonlight and into the booth, where David’s intoxicating smell infiltrated the air, and we were squeezed in so tight that his Florentine leather squeaked against mine. With some adjustments, our bodies fit like puzzle pieces into the cramped space. David pulled a paperclip out of his pocket, bent it, and fit the tip into one of the tiny holes in the receiver, then jiggled it around. After a click, he hung up, careful to keep the paperclip in the hole. Then he counted—uno, due, tre—and lifted the receiver. We waited a few seconds, and when we heard the dial tone he handed me the phone.

I punched in the number and got a clear connection. The long bell-ringing of the American phone line made me home-sick; it was nothing like the snappy buzz of calls within Europe. The Roman beside me never questioned why I was calling a football player across the ocean. It wasn’t Brad Carmichael’s trite handsomeness—quarterback shoulders, blond hair, flat belly, and the aura of an All-American athlete—because these superficialities were wasted on me. My attraction to him had grown from his understanding of why I’d lied to my parents—allowing them to believe I was at MIT while I was in Italy, until my advisor called them—and his strength in calling me out on it before exposing his own vulnerabilities. He understood my rage at their mentioning the lost tuition when my identity was at stake. He always knew when to use words and when to use his powerful arms to hold me in silence.

When Brad’s voicemail picked up, I tried calling his room instead. I imagined the electrons swimming down through the metal cable of the phone box and underground for miles under the ocean, then overhead on poles until reaching the MIT frat house.

I’d met Brad in the library the prior Spring while I was researching my family tree and learned that I’d been adopted from an Italian orphanage at 18 months. I didn’t believe it until I called my parents a few moments later, and their response was silence. Although I was just a stranger in tears that day, Brad asked questions and consoled me about my discovery. I was stuck on this image of having spent my first birthday without a family, and Brad promised I’d never spend another birthday alone. It was a silly vow he couldn’t possibly keep, but it led to margaritas and jazz in Central Square. This was followed several months later by a Summer internship with him in the magnetics research lab at MIT, which was accepted by my parents as a legitimate excuse not to return to New York. I held the paperclip in place as the ringing continued, but I waited because I needed to speak in complete sentences and engage in a relationship beyond the ordering of food. I was tired of being the outsider.

Before Brad, I drank my way through the boredom of weekends, but it was the flicker of his disapproval about my behavior that drove me to get serious about Math. During our first snow that Fall, I’d struggled on a problem in Differential Geometry, yearning for understanding until the symbols magically transformed into a picture language which allowed me to see the connections that led to the answer. After scrawling the proof on the back of Brad’s practice schedule, I proudly admired its simple beauty. I was about to call my parents when it struck me that my math brain hadn’t come from them, but was from the coalescing genes of two random people living in Italy. That’s when I bought my ticket to Rome and flew away. Four months later, Christmas and New Year spent alone in barren cafés, my cash was dwindling.

“Hello?” I imagined, but all I heard was ringing. Maybe Brad had a game. The blisters behind my heels throbbed as the ring of the phone repeated its dull chorus. I longed for his grip on my waist. At the airport, when I had stood up to board he clung to my hand so our arms were outstretched and only our intertwined fingers were touching. He was so dejected and beautiful, allowing his face to expose how anxious he was about my leaving. He said he’d be lost without me, but we all need pain, or else how can we tell when we’re happy?

Leaning against David, while the phone continued ringing, I slid off my sandals to relieve my blisters on the cool metal floor. I didn’t pay attention to a woman who stood outside the booth glaring at us, except to note that she had a square face and was about the right age to be my mother. I wondered if my mother was on the lookout for me, the way I was always on the lookout for her. Garlic from Alfredo’s Restaurant wafted into the booth as a reminder that I couldn’t survive on cappuccino, even if it was the cheapest escape from hunger. I thought of telling David it was my birthday, but I couldn’t remember the word for “birthday” in Italian. It was almost over, anyway; my watch gave it another four minutes. I pushed my index finger against the fog on the glass, leaving my print—the unique identifier that connected me to two parents I still hadn’t found. I’d been fingerprinted at my Saturday banking job last fall, and I noted again how much easier it is to see our fingerprints through the image created by our touch, as opposed to just looking straight at the source.

The phone rang on and on. We ignored the woman with the square face knocking on the plexiglass window, whose hair, I noticed, was flat and thin, unlike my disobedient mass. The problem was that Brad’s complex inner life—always searching for the answer—was hidden in a package that was alluring to anyone, including that slut, Serena, who couldn’t tell the difference between his mind and that of any other player out on the field. She and the others were posting photos of all their togetherness. Meanwhile, Brad’s brief emails made me wonder if there was an implicit expiration date to the words, “I love you.”

The woman outside the booth finally walked away, exasperated, as I rubbed my scratchy eyes. After my invincible state during the process of falling in love, how could I now feel so vulnerable? It was wrenching. I just needed to hear Brad’s voice. Screw this quest. I still hadn’t found the people who abandoned me. The orphanage hadn’t given me any information and I was all out of leads. These people were a fiction; Brad was reality. I didn’t want to know who I was; I wanted to know who we were. He would never forget my birthday, but it was already early evening back home and I still hadn’t heard from him. In three minutes, it would be over. Sure, he couldn’t call, but there were other ways to communicate.

The ringing wailed on as a gypsy in a tattered dress approached with a baby clutched in her arms. She put out her hand, so I reached into the pocket of my jeans for change, but I felt nothing. The woman’s hair was dirty and she looked hungry. She had nothing for her baby except the tactile embrace of her arms. She leaned forward, pleading, so I reached further down into my pocket, until, at the very bottom, I felt my key from the pensione. I tried my other pocket, where I found a quarter, but it had no value here. Brad would’ve said there was no point in giving her money anyway; it wasn’t solving anything. He was always reaching conclusions, always predicting the end of the movie instead of watching it unfold. The woman’s head fell, and as she slunk away, I noticed that the moon had shifted since my arrival into the booth.

My contacts were irritating my eyes, so I removed them and tossed them to the ground. As David’s face came into my focus, his long, full eyelashes blinked. The phone was still ringing when he finally reached over and took the receiver from my hand. He had a look of sympathy on his face, as if he understood my disappointment and wanted to make things better—somehow, without any common words between us to do so. He removed the deformed paper clip from the hole in the receiver where it had fit in so snug and slipped it back in his pocket. The last ring faded into silence before he replaced the receiver on the hook with a click.

A breeze blew in the smell of roasting chestnuts from a street vendor. I lined up the two rows of teeth of my leather jacket and began zipping it shut, one tooth intertwined with the next like the DNA from my unknown parents. When I realized my jacket was caught in David’s jacket, he seemed amused. He untangled us, tipped his head forward and glanced down at the ground before licking his lips. Then he looked up, half-laughing, and flung his black hair out of his eyes with a swift motion of his head.

He unwrapped a lollipop from his jacket pocket and stuck it in his mouth. There was just one more minute left to my birthday. My past and future birthdays felt irrelevant during these sixty seconds. Foggy-eyed, I leaned down to pick up my sandals, but there wasn’t enough room, so David began to squeeze out of the booth to get out of my way. When the pressure of his body against mine started to release, I panicked and clutched his arm. Then, to keep him from moving, I stepped on his left foot. I didn’t know him and I never would, but none of that mattered because he was here with me right now, standing beside me in flip flops so I could feel his warmth under the balls of my bare feet. His skin was soft, nothing like the marble David. He popped the lollipop out of his mouth and placed it in mine. Artificial strawberry.

His lips separated slightly as he studied my face with his brown eyes. David whispered something in Italian which I didn’t need to understand, and then he took off his gloves without moving his gaze from my eyes. His breath warmed my face. I counted the chimes of the church bell: uno, due, tre, and on. Twelve strikes. Midnight. My birthday was over.

David removed the lollipop from my mouth and put it on the ledge below the phone while I licked the strawberry off my lips and drew a line on the fog clouding the booth window. David drew another line and then tapped on the point of intersection. His hand’s movement was expressive and intentional, like that of a painter. He touched my lips with the tender skin on the tip of his damp finger with such delicacy that I almost felt the ridges of his fingerprint. The feeling was soft and electric, causing me to shudder. Just that morning I had seen the painting in the Sistene Chapel of God, four fingers limp, reaching his forefinger out to grant life to Adam.

Deirdre Shanahan

The Wind Calling   


My dad might still be travelling through England in the caravan, raiding the place of what it's got; jobs, money, sites to stop in but I haven't heard from him in a long time. There were six of us when we started out, then four after Mum died. My elder brother drifted off. In the end, it was me and Dad.

He had his two china cats, a Spanish fan, pictures of hurling teams, and his dog Treacle, whose eyes are dark as muddy tracks. The past piled up, like the sections in our history books, Stone Age, Vikings and Tudors, which we had from school. Comics, photos, and games are stuffed in a corner as if we had never left. The way we lived was the way we were, running around on a midsummer evening, frenzied with the excitement of throwing stones in a pond, the hush of trees we sat under to gossip about Colum Brady, tall, with the squinty eye, blonde and eighteen with a dreamy look, as if he couldn't understand what he had been born into. Ever since I saw him on a site outside of Galway, he wore a long coat which came to the ground, scarves free as streams and waistcoats with flowers. Once he wore a cape. Jem thought he was Jesus but I knew he wasn't, because he had no beard. Jem thought a lot of him because he was always giving him balls, jigsaws, and once a cricket bat which he didn't know what to do with. Colum knew about things we only guessed at; the best form for a horse, their price, the names of the stars and planets. He showed us a swing made from a tyre, how we could nick a bike and a string of pearls he had lifted in a jewellers. He led Jem on; telling him things, setting dares, making up stories.

He talked about going to the south of France, to Saint Marie de la Mer, where gypsies came from; their spiritual home. I used to hope I could visit  there, because it was warm and different. He knew the names of flowers, trees, hurly teams. I wondered how, when he had never gone to school, never been forced to, but my sister Rena said he must have got it from books nicked from a shop or a library. Dad said he was shifty and too clever and any fool knew that a lad who wore those shirts and thin ties was after something.

After days away, he would bring me a small piece of jewellery, or a stone with a glint, shells or ribbons and laces I could only dream of for tying up my hair. Cassie, his sister, and Rena plaited my hair, discussing styles, which colour would be best, whether they should brush up the stray strands or let them fall. They kept hair pins between their lips and in front of the mirror my father scavenged from a house that was demolished. They contemplated my face and what would suit it, tied clumps of hair in ribbons and set in slides.

They put me in dresses nicked from wherever they went. Preening themselves in the squat mirror, they were going to challenge the world in the dance halls and almost achieved it but that Cassie had a child at sixteen and went to live with a man who was older. Rena was fifteen and said she would never be caught that way and she wasn't, but she never had the chance with us to watch over, especially Jem. He was a lot of work. She taught him the most of what he would need, numbers and letters. When we stopped in country places we used to go walking the lanes for fruit. He would hang on my arm, almost up to my shoulder, swung my plastic bag with his, juices from the berries leaking after us. Thin and wiry, one of the men said, slight as a wave but I don't know. I've only seen waves once from a distance.

When he wasn't around, it was my job to find him, like the time one summer on one of the better sites. I went in the washroom and Colum was with him, flicking water, making Jem dance. Droplets flying, Colum had flooded the floor. I worried we might be kicked out by the warden but Jem got excited and ran out with his towel sopping wet.

Colum said we should get some air. I followed him out while Jem's voice could be heard in the distance. Colum asked if I'd been up this way before and did I know about the river hidden at the side of the canal where the grass was long and the willows threw down their branches?

When we got to the rough ground by the river, he pulled off his tee-shirt and said he was going in. He was so thin there were shadows on his ribs and his belly curved in.

‘That colour suits you,’ he said, referring to the red and lavender ribbon - and it pleased me.

Afterwards, we lay on the grass. Putting his mouth on mine, he drew me close and then it was too late. The day was heavy and stunning. He was the river going through me; words, songs; stories from his grandmother. He locked me into him. His fingers lay on my back, fragile as insects, his lips were going lower and lower. He ran his hand on my arm and down my legs as if he didn't quite believe I was there and water shifted.  The air was still and loud with noise. A bird rose. I wanted to weep.

‘I'm thinking of leaving,’ he said.

He wanted to live in one place, be in the country and off the road. Wouldn't he need a job? I asked.

‘There are other ways,’ he said.

He would go back over where there was more space and he could be free. You could grow your own food, have hens, live in the fields. What about his family? Wouldn't they miss him? He said he didn't care. They'd have to get used to it. His father was a blackguard and the soonest he could, he was going off.

‘Would that be now or later?’ I asked.

He said he didn't know. He put his face to my neck and fiddled with the plait at the back of my head, pulling the ribbon off. He ran it over his knuckles so that they came white, then dragged it through his mouth behind his teeth. He tied it around my neck, saying it suited me there. His mouth was wet. I thought he would eat me. I couldn't say any more, even if I didn't want him to go, what he did or wanted to do, was always separate, grown up. I was scared. He wasn't like one of Brid Canty's boys who were in a remand centre after terrifying a shopkeeper with a knife. They were always out of control, though once Brid said at least her sons were men and not the like of other fellas wearing clothes the colour of petticoats.

I couldn't breathe. He eased himself up, brushed his hands on his trousers and looked across to the waste field where we had the parties. He wanted to go there, and would I come? I said I was expected, for there wasn't anyone to cook so I replaced my clothes, rearranged my hair and, carrying my shoes, walked back across the ragged grass. I watched him that night from our small window but drew the curtain and got on with washing the cabbage. That talk, notions of leaving, unsettled me.

Next time I saw him, it was outside and November. The men had made a bonfire and slung wood onto the rubbish so Rena, Jem, Dad and me stood in the warmth of the flames until the fireworks started. When the drink was gone, there was music and when that was done, singing. Voices seared out, 'The Wearing of the Green' and 'The Croppy Boy'. Words fizzed in my head. Jem gathered the lids of bins and hit them with sticks. Two years younger than me, he had always been bolder. Rockets shrieked into the sky; sequins of pink and blue thrown into the dark. Stars were falling. That was the last I saw of him.

Afterwards, when Dad went to pieces, a family took me in but I never got used to them. I still can't live in a house, something to do with walls, one room leading to another, so you can't get out. One night, I woke to a fierce howling. It was the flutter of birds in the eaves and the wind, so strong, like a child calling.

They let me go back today, but he drifted, saying he couldn't bear the closeness of cities. He was cramped. He didn't bother to find work. There was no point, everything he wanted, or valued or prayed for had sunk. When he came for me, the strain on his face told more than I wanted; Jem wandering off that evening and not being seen since. It was never the same again. Dad started drinking and said Jem had escaped into the air on wings and he wished he could join him. I had dreams of my father; the rosary passing through his hands, purple beads like blood, the cross falling, repeating the words in a low murmur.

Rena left. She had an eye for the road. We got a text from the coast, then Birmingham, Liverpool and Leeds. She was working her way from us. I had to read and re-read the words to him. The last time she wrote she had got a job, in a salon, she called it. I sat on my nails so as not to bite them, hoping she would come home.

I'm in a job like hers, though I look after flowers not hair. I am a gardener - or I want to be. I got that from my mother, liking gardens and plants. Dad said the hanging baskets were her idea. They were not strong, only plastic, so the holes kept getting bigger until they rotted. The strain was too much and telling so Dad had to take them down.

I want to see Dad. He could be anywhere, up north, in Scotland, maybe gone back over. When the weather was good he wanted to be there, stalking the fairs, looking for cattle. I see him journeying but lost. I'd like to tell him how I ran into Colum in Balham and how he said he recognised me by the back of my head and my voice. Sitting on a red plush seat under a picture of Queen Victoria, he rose to kiss me, as though it was days, not years since we met.

He told me Cassie was still on the road but with another man and three kids. I asked what happened to his clothes and he said they were not needed on the buildings. He smiled that nice wide smile but he had changed. His face was harder and tanned. I read lines in his brows and round his mouth. Time had got him. He was in a room in a tall house with small windows but as soon as he got money he was off, he said. That could take a long time I said.

‘As long as it takes, I'll wait,’ he said.

I asked what had been bothering me for years. Jem. Colum looked into his drink. The silence lasted years. He fiddled with the beer mat, passing it between his fingers. He said he went to the river that evening. Jem had arrived up saying he had a good pile of cans and he was going night fishing. He asked Colum if he wanted to go along. Colum said he hadn`t time and it wasn`t his idea of fun, sitting around in the wet dark waiting for a fish to decide to bite. They had a row. Colum had said Jem was a young pup not fit to be out on his own. Jem said he had seen Colum and me by the willow. If Colum didn`t give him the price of a bottle of whiskey, he`d tell our dad. Colum told him to head off.

That was the last he saw of him; Jem wearing a long dark coat, carrying a rod and his bag. Later he heard of men seeking him by the fields and the canal, all the way to the river. It was lugged up with leaves, rotting pieces of wood from old boats, heads of elderflower glowing their clouds of white, cartons, dust, shadows and leaves, floating downstream.

Prole Judge’s Comments

Angela Readman

There were a lot of wonderful entries for the Prolitzer Prize, the standard was high and the stories were incredibly well written. Judging, I was delighted by a strong sense of character and the scope of the work. The stories varied from the personal to the political, some spanned years and whole life histories, others hinged on a single moment.

I read all the stories and put several aside to read again. There were some that came so close to making my shortlist. I loved the writing. I loved the place, but, sometimes it felt like the story may have originally been a longer piece and omitted something a reader needed to know. Other stories could have been stronger without the last line or so.

The stories I loved included a strong sense of character, and a sense of place so vivid I could smell it. I could see the world of the story and couldn't put it down until the end. This is the mark of a good story, for me, the ability to take a reader elsewhere and keep us there until the end. The mark of a great one is when, even after I've finished reading, the story stays with me.

I chose Janos as the winner for this reason. The writing seduced me into a world of shark's teeth, fish heads and the dangerous allure of strangers. The ending of a story can be where some stories fall down, but the last line was electric. There was such a sense that something had changed, it felt sinister, yet exciting. This was a story I felt couldn't be any other length. It started and ended exactly where the story needed to be. Every word felt necessary.

The stories I chose as runners up, Fingerprints, and The Wind Calling, shared this quality. Fingerprints impressed me with its feeling of urgency. The use of space in the story was outstanding. Two people who speak different languages share a phone booth. The piece explores closeness and distance throughout, while the sense of the intimate space creates a wonderful tension. It was beautifully done.

The other story I picked, The Wind Calling, is almost the exact opposite to Fingerprints. It roams amongst places and people. It spans years, yet the reader could go on this journey because of the precision of the writing. We could see the story so clearly we were able to follow the characters from open fields into cities. The writer made smart choices about varying pace and the intensity of description according to the feelings of the characters. These qualities stood out for me.

Angela Readman's stories and prose have won The Costa Short Story Award, The National Flash Fiction Competition, Inkspill, the Fish Short Memoir Prize, and been placed in The Asham Prize, The Short Story Competition, The Bath Story Award, and The Manchester Fiction Prize. She has had prose published in Mslexia, Prole, Black and Blue, Matter, and anthologies including The Bristol Prize, and Unthology (Unthanks.)

Her debut collection, Don't Try This it at Home (And Other Stories) won a Saboteur Award in 2015, and The Rubery Book Award. She also writes poetry, her collection is out with Nine Arches in November 2016.


The Prolitzer Prize for Prose Writing, 2013

The winners and runners up of the Prolitzer Prize for Prose Writing 2013, chosen by our judge, Jaki McCarrick. Ruby Cowling wins with Softy, and the runner up spots are taken by Tracy Iceton and Alison Wassell. All these stories can be found in Prole, Issue 12 and also here, a little further down the page.

Congratulations, all great pieces.

All great stories. Many thanks to our judge and all who entered. There were some fantastic pieces. All profits are ploughed back into Prole to support our work.

The winners.


Prolitzer Prize 2013, winner

Ruby Cowling

Paul Shaw jogs, five yards behind the other boys, up the misty pitch to Mr Harrison and the net of footballs. His Golas rub. The one-size bib keeps sliding off his chicken-bone shoulders. He is keeping his head down, trying not to think about the thing he’s trying not to think about, but everything reminds him.


        Under his feet, the amphibian green and brown of the December grass. Hopping in front of him, the bow knees of Javid-the-rubbish-goalie. Echoing off the changing room walls just now, the series of ribbiting burps Martin Oates is trying to get famous for.

         It’s Tuesday, which comes round more often than any other day. Freezing PE all morning and then, this afternoon, double Biology.

Last week the rest of the class went yessssss when Rowley told them it was going to be today: Frog dissection.

Don’t think about it.

Don’t even think the word.

“Pick it up, lads,” shouts Harrison. “Running like girls, you lot.”

Actually it’s the last school Tuesday of the whole of the decade, which is weird, and futuristic: like they’re going to come back after the Christmas holidays to classrooms shiny and white and silver, to unisex teacher-clones in collarless shirts. Mind-scans instead of exams and personal jet packs instead of the bus. All right, probably not. But something’s got to be different.

         Paul stumbles and kicks up a soft thing crusted with frost. Though it’s brown and all too willing to roll, he chooses to believe it’s just mud and trogs on, yanking up the custard-yellow bib, huffs of breath pushing out of him.

        He was awake until nearly four last night. Stuart kept kicking up at Craig’s bunk again, and later the sounds coming through from Leah’s room made him put on his Walkman (Viva Hate of course) – but worse was the scene playing on the screen of his closed eyelids.

It goes like this:

        The class files into the lab, chattering mouths quickly closed by the murderous sweetness of formaldehyde. His heart is rabbiting in his chest. From the store cupboard, Rowley brings a great glass jar with a grey-green mush of dead faces squashed against the sides, and tips the contents onto his desk: Paul is to choose a specimen from the slippering pile. He finds in his hand the cold, moist body of a frog, legs dangling sadly from between his fingers, and carries it to his bench as if it were a slipped-out part of himself. He flops it onto its back, pins out its limbs to expose the taut white stomach…   

        At this point he'd torn off his headphones and scurried to the bathroom to splash his face from the cold tap. Jelly legs took him back to his room, and he didn’t look, he didn’t, at the blacker-black strip of Leah’s slightly open door.

        Trying to run now on legs that are still basically like tubes of Angel Delight, his mouth fills again with the taste of last night and he wants to double up and puke on the muddy grass there and then.

        If he did puke, they might let him lie down in the nurse’s office for the rest of the day. Only a puke, so no need to phone Liz and Brian – just a few quiet hours in the cool cubbyhole by the office, safe under a blanket until he felt better, which would happen at about half three.

        He lets the others run ahead and bends over, trying to get his throat to press in on itself so he can retch and maybe get something up. But his stomach’s empty; he’s always starving by this time, and anyway he hasn’t had breakfast today. Like yesterday.Don’t think about it. All he can do is spit.

        “Paul Shaw!” calls Harrison, “You’ve been told about spitting. Just because Paul Gascoigne does it...”

        Harrison pauses to let the boys scoff and scorn at the mention of Gazza in the same universe as Paul Shaw, Footballing Superspaz.

        “Get here, go and stand somewhere useful and for God’s sake try not to score any own goals.”

If he can just get through today.

Think of a song.

Think of the weekend.

He might go to Woolworth’s on Saturday.

        He might go and look at Now! 16 again – pick up the cassette, open up the leaflet, trying not to look like a shoplifter. He’s got to decide what he’ll leave off to get it down to the right length. He’s been saving a C90 – he’s got a new one, still wrapped – for when Craig gets it for Christmas. (Craig’s got a guilty dad down south, and after birthdays and Christmas he guards his new albums for a week, then starts lending them out for 30p a day.) Cliff Richard obviously goes. Richard Marx. Milli Vanilli. Now That’s Not What I Call Music. Leah’ll help him choose the rest – he’s going to need her to get the double cassette deck off of Stuart anyway, since Stuart won’t even answer him when he asks. Leah likes that Tina Turner one, so he’ll have to leave it on. Though to be honest he probably would anyway.

        They’ll be at the allotment too, on Sunday. Liz and Brian send the seven of them off every other weekend along with kids from the bigger homes, all lumped together like they’ve got some kind of illness but so what, it's a day every fortnight like a breathing space. Not that Leah’s been allowed to go the last few times. She shook her head when he asked her.

        “Liz says I’ve got to stay here,” she’d said, looking through the condensation on her bedroom window.

“But why? What have you done?”         

Without Leah there’d be a big gap in the day.

“Nothing,” she said.

“Well what is it then?”

“Just leave it, alright?”

Then she’d turned around and there was this look on her face.       

“You go, you and the other little kids.”

        He slunk away. That was probably it: she was fifteen after all, same reason why she had her own room, away from the younger girls.

        Some of the other kids mess around, stamp on the plants, throw soil, but Paul doesn’t join in; he keeps his head down and it stays special. The allotment’s got a sort of quiet blowing through it. He thinks of the tiny pokes of lettuce that were new last time, how just looking at them made him get a little leap in his stomach. And how, crouching, you get close to the earth which is damp and cold and so black, and then when you dig down it gets warmer, as if it’s alive – but again, again, again, it’s the frogs and how they’ll be digging into their damp bodies this afternoon, and yep, there’s the shiver and that weakening rush through his guts and he wonders whether he can somehow fall into a coma just by willing it, although if that were possible surely he would have made it happen by now and he wouldn’t be standing here, freezing, waiting for everyone else to get into position and for Harrison to blow his whistle.

        He tries to summon up the bitter comforts of Morrissey: I will be here/ oh, believe me; but as keeps happening – so annoying – what his head comes up with instead is stupid Nick Berry, Every Loser Wins.

         After kick-off Paul runs to the furthest corner of his own half and sort of hovers off one foot and then the other. This, along with shouting Come on! and putting a hand in the air every now and again, is enough to make it look as if he’s in the game. Javid is doing something similar on his goal-line, gloved hands absurdly large on the ends of his fragile arms. The lads chase the ball like shoaling fish.

        “Space, boys, make space!” yells Harrison, for the thousandth time.

         Martin Oates stays up front, shouting “Mine! Pass it! Mine!” It’s noisy and cold but Paul’s eyes are trying to close even as he runs in small circles.

         Out of nowhere the football smashes off his face and it’s like two hornets have flown up his nose.

Oates comes rushing up, screaming, “You stupid… idiot.”

Harrison goes mental if you swear.

“That was going in! What the f-, what are you doing up here anyway?”

Paul doesn’t know how he’s got there; he just knows his face is on fire. Oates walks away, shaking his head.


        Thanks to Paul being in the wrong place, the ball’s gone out for a goal kick. Javid does his best but the ball curves straight out for a throw-in only forty yards into his own half. Oates’s haaa of ridicule as he dashes to take the throw makes Jav turn his face to the ground and Paul murmurs “Hard luck,” and runs back down the pitch away from the action. He can claim he’s making space. Make space. Funny, outside of a match, when they do training, the words are gentle, generous. Give and go. Like when they talk about foster care. Children’s home. Dear parent or guardian.


In the changing room boys are shivering to the ends of their teeth; skinny white legs hop into polyester trousers, trying to avoid the bitter concrete floor and its clods of boot-spilt mud. Paul feels his palms moisten when he looks at the clock with its hands tipping over the twelve; the afternoon is coming with nothing to stop it. Rowley with his jar, the frogs tumbling wet onto the desk. The tiny alien toes curled in on each other, the open throat displayed to the room. The thighs flopping apart.

        Come, Armageddon/ Come, Armageddon, come.

        He pushes his arms into his baggy sleeves and realises there’s something kicking off: shards of voices are spiking above the rush of the running showers.


– ’ere…

– leave it!…

– h-haaa…

– you…

– at him…

– dirty…

– gerroff…

– innit, Paki!

        Paul waits for Harrison to jump on this last word. But there’s nothing – the coach is outside, stacking up cones. It’s Oates, of course, and his mates, having a go at Jav who’s showering, like he always does, with his kit still on.

        Jav flashes rabbit eyes in his direction and Paul freezes. He shouldn’t have looked. It’s worse, somehow, being the one who sees; the one asked silently for help.

Is it? Worse?


But what can he do, for her or for him or anyone?

        He watches as Oates grabs the back of Jav’s neck and pushes his head under the shower and turns the water cold, and then twists Jav’s face up to the spray and jams his hand under his jaw so the water’s filling his nose and his mouth can’t open, and Paul knows how it will be burning him and how all he’ll be thinking in deafening not-words is survive it survive it. He sees himself from above, flying forward, his damp grey towel the cape of a superhero, slamming Oates’s potato head against the tiled walls of the shower until his blood starts washing around their feet.

        But of course, Paul is half his size and there’s no way he’s really going to do that.

He grabs his duffel coat and bag and runs from the changing room with his shoelaces loose, and his face is already wet before he reaches the back of the empty Portacabins where he knows it’s safe to hit his head, over and over, on the rusty corrugated panels.


Yesterday morning, coming down to the kitchen before the others to try to get the last of the Rice Krispies, he’d been stopped by the unusual sight of the closed door. He could hear Leah in there, and Liz. Leah was sitting at the table and Liz was standing over her. He could tell without seeing; Liz’s voice slicing over hers. But I don’t want - Ungrateful! - I’m not - Think it’s clever? - Course not, I didn’t mean -

You stupid little tart.

So Brian was in there too. 

        There were low tones, hissing. A pause. Then Liz, rumbling like a kettle coming to the boil, rising and rising until she ended the sentence Cut it out of you myself!

        He turned and ran back up to the boys’ room and shut the door, and when he heard Leah slam hers two minutes later he knew he could get up and go and help keep her in one piece. But he did nothing. He kept his head down.

        Someone tapped on Leah’s door. Don’t open it. Paul knows the way Brian taps, the way he slips down the corridor to her room. Paul has known all this and kept his head down.


By half past one he has brushed his fringe over the hot red mark and he’s shuffling into Biology, looking at the floor. The air is rot-sweet and the class is buzzing. They are twelve and thirteen, and in their hands in a few moments will be the power of a knife, the power of change over another’s choiceless body. Rowley barks something from the front of the class, making Paul jump, and he sees that the frogs are already pinned out, one per bench. His feet take him to where there’s an empty lab stool and finally he’s face to face with it all.

        His frog is spread-eagled, head flung back, grey lips pressed together in an arrowhead accusing the front of the room. There’s a slippery shine to the mottled skin. On its left and right are a scalpel and forceps, like a table setting. The insides of its thighs give themselves up to the ceiling. The swollen drum of its abdomen is so pale and tender, he thinks it might split if he breathes too hard.

        At other benches there are shrieks and sniggers that Rowley pounces on. He tells them to get to work, to follow the instructions set out for them on the sheet.

Begin the first incision, using the forceps to lift the skin between the frog’s rear legs, it says.

Stars sweep through Paul’s vision.

With the scalpel, make a cut along the midline of the frog, bisecting it in equal parts.

        He blinks and swallows, and picks up the scalpel. He touches its point to the base of the sad little belly and starts to press, bunching the flesh towards the moment of puncture and then he pulls away, flinging down the forceps, and stabs the scalpel into the wood of the bench instead. He hears himself shouting No, no, no, no, no, no, no and then Rowley’s got him by the shoulders, shaking him, and he looks Rowley right in the face and starts to shout again: “Leave us! Leave us alone!”

Judge’s comments:

Softy, because it has really beautiful writing in it and has a powerful emotional charge. This tale of a fostered boy dreading the frog dissection class is very good indeed and I remembered it long after I'd read it. I like the writer's voice a lot.

Blind Leading

Prolitzer Prize 2013, runner up

Tracey Iceton

The bell’s ringing.  07:00 hours.  Time to get up if I want me only hot meal of the day.  The nuns don’t turf us out the way Sergeant-Major Hollis did, ripping off the sheets and chucking freezing water, cursing us for lazy mongrels.  ‘Holler’ we called him.  Couldn’t speak but he was shouting and barking.  There’s no barking here, only the soft voice of Sister Mary Sophia encouraging us up so’s they can be cleaning, airing, getting the stench of us out, letting the London stench in.  Sweat or sewage, there’s not much in it for my money.

“C’mon, Billy, old son, porridge’ll be cold.”

         A hand twitches me leg.  Stan’s, the left one.  The one with only finger and thumb.  I feel his pincer grip.

        Me rough wool jacket grazes me face.  The one remaining button pings against me cheek.

“I’ll save ya a seat, old son.”  Stan hobbles out.

        I swing me legs free of the tangled blanket.  Trail a hand over the floor ’til the buckled leather of me boots comes into touch.  I cram me feet down into their cold pools, fasten me collar and shrug on me jacket.  Stand.  Turn left for a weather report.  Feel sun warmth on me face.  Must be an alright day, one of them bright and frosty sorts.  I stretch an arm, fingertips stroking damp plaster.  Lined up proper, I set off, ten paces forwards.  Reach out again.  Find the table edge, the half-moon nick in it that I rub with me thumb, to check, like.  Then two side steps.  Hands out.  Jug on the left; bowl dead ahead.  Water’s cold as it runs over me fingers, waiting for it at the bottom of the bowl.  I stop pouring when it covers the back of me hand.  I think about Hollis as I plunge me face in, ‘You shitty mongrels, get them ears scrubbed.’  That mush of his, fat, round, red, pock marks like curdled cream.  His handlebar moustache, curled tighter on the right than the left.  Last thing I clapped eyes on, his bleeding handlebar.

        Breakfast’s the usual; muttered prayers, watery porridge, lukewarm tea.  The slurping, belching, chewing and two bouts of rib-shattering coughing that’s the soundtrack of us lot trying to fill our bellies on too little.

“Billy, old son,” Stan tugs me into a seat with his pincered hand, “You doing the tube stations again?”

“Reckon I’ll try Hyde Park Corner, plenty of Christmas shoppers there.”

“Smart move, old son.  You should pick up a fair bit.”

         I shovel a lump of porridge.  Worse than army rations but I’m bloody glad of it. Least we get to finish in our own sweet time.  No body hollering to, ‘Get a move on, you greedy mongrels.’ 

“Well, get a bleeding load of that,” Stan says.

“What’s to do?”

        “A proper pea-souper, that an’ a ’alf,” he says, “And it was bright as a button first thing.  Where’s that lot come from all a sudden?  Ya can ’ardly see ’cross the road now.”

“Tough, that, mucker.”

I tap-tap me way to Hyde Park, following the red line in me head that keeps me right.  That’s all London is to me, a bleeding red line.  One I spent the last eight years learning the hard way, falling arse over elbow.  When I first came here, after the army’d booted me in ’44, after I couldn’t see hand in front, let alone enemy targets, that red line was a bare mile, just one street in Houndslow.  But one street wasn’t enough so I started stretching it, step by stumbling step.  Start coping or give up.  Today I go all over London, following the line in me head and the loose clinking of spare change.

        Now I’m out I can smell it, Stan’s pea-souper.  It reeks, a damp-wood fire.  Wet smoke.  I can feel it too.  On me cheeks like the sea frets of me kiddie days.  I take me usual cut through the park, skirting the Serpentine.  The water laps soft, like.  I try to remember the colour of sea.  Once I thought about throwing meself in, drowning, like, but I was the platoon’s best swimmer.  Now ‘Holler’ Hollis, he couldn’t swim a stroke. Could bark out the orders, right enough though, no matter how cold the water.  If I’d the chance now I’d throw him in, the bastard.

        Out on the street them lot’re bumping into me for a change.  It’s bloody bedlam.  I try following me red line, me cane tracing the outline of the doorsteps but it’s like walking the wrong way through revolving doors.  I take to the gutter, more me scene now, like. 

“Oi, pal, watch yourself there.  If a bus comes he’ll knock ya flat.”

         I turn my scarred face to the voice.  By the sound of him he’s about thirty.  My age.  From the look of me he’ll reckon I’m more like fifty.

“’S all right, mucker, I can hear ’em coming miles away.”

“Yeah, well, ya wanna watch it, that’s all.  No beggar can get about easy in this lot.”

“I can.”

It’s that what gives me the idea.

Outside the tube station I set up shop.  Like a market-man I hawk me wares.

“Blind leading the blind.  Guide you anywhere in London.  Blind leading the blind.  Guaranteed to get you there.”

“Blind leading the blind.  Guide you anywhere in London.  Blind leading the blind.  Guaranteed to get you there.”

My first taker’s a woman.  Smells of piss and speaks with that binty wobble.

“You can find your way in this smog, sonny?”

“I do it every day, ma’am.”

“How much to take me to Charing Cross?”

         It hangs around in the air all day, that gritty feel and smoky reek.  I turn a steady trade.  Look forward to getting back to the shelter and bragging to Stan.  He’ll be narked to know I’m better off, for once, than him with his poxy limp and mashed-up hand.

         Next day it’s worse, this heaven sent pea-souper, and business is better, a trickle running fast into a stream, like.  I take a gent with too much cologne to Chancery Lane, a honeymooning couple to the museum, a Swiss researcher to the library, a mother with three screamers to Baker Street and a tart to Soho.  It’s well past dark when I drop her off but there’s still plenty of folk about so I do a night shift ferrying hooray-Henrys from bash to bash.

         Day three’s better still.  I put me hand out, caress this lovely smog.  Solid air I can squeeze in me fist like a wet rag.  When I set out foggy fingers grab at me jacket; it’s like wading through water.  I don’t wade far before I find a drowning man, offer the smog me thanks, ‘Cheers, mucker,’ and him me services.

We make our way from Elephant and Castle down Lambeth.

“What ’appened to you, mate?”  The cockney’s hard in his voice.

“It was during the war.”

“Them bleeding Nazis.  Jerry swine, I tell ya.  Bastards all.”

And I’m living it again, easy as that. 

The muddy field, crawling across it on our bellies, the stink of cordite on me hands, the blackness all around.  Waiting, watching the horizon, the sun fiery and alive, the sky turning shades of pink, gold, blue and this pale purple lasses call lilac.  And Hollis giving the orders, barking at the top of his whatsit. 

“You fucking mongrels, move it.” 

         Us getting up, cramped and cold, mud cracked on our fronts, frost crusted on our backs.  Another night exercise survived.  Us all eager to get back to barracks, hot tea, clean sheets and kip the night out. 

“About turn, quick march!” 

         We’re off.  Following Hollis’s holler like the good lads we are.  Following right onto the live fire range where Six Platoon’ve come out for their morning drill.  Not hearing the warning cries over Holler’s Bow Bells baritone as he reams out Kettering for leaving his spare magazine behind, poor mucker.  Hearing the whiz-bangs too late and running for cover.  Ignoring Holler now, like.  And he’s mad as hell.  Grabs me ’cos I’m bringing up the rear.  Yanks me back.  The sight of that bloody handlebar, the one side drooped like a shagged-out dick, as he bawls me out for a coward. 

“I said, halt, that’s an order, private, didn’t you hear me, you shitty mongrel!”

         Then feeling heat searing me eyes as the shrapnel rips and tears: beds in.  Smelling boiling blood.  Screaming out the pain, loud enough to drown Holler.

“Jesus Christ.  Oh God!”

“Medic, medic!”

And all that blackness.

“You alright, mate?”

         I nod.  Turn, cross, make haste along me red line.  Dump the gent in Lambeth and push off again.  Not his fault.  Eight years and I can still drop right down into it, the hot metal slicing me face, cutting the sight from me like the devil hacking a chunk off your soul.

I go on making hay while the sun ain’t shining.  All the rest of that day and the next. 

“Blind leading the blind.  Get you where you’re going.” 

        Me red line folds over and back, under and across ’til I’ve tied up the whole of London, like.  I can taste it now, the smog, me best new mucker these past few days.  Black-burnt toast on me tongue, it is.  The crumbs of it won’t be washed down no matter how much you swallow.  Sick with chewing on handfuls of coke dust fresh from a just-dowsed fire, I stop off in Hype Park.  Crawl on me hands and knees to the water’s edge.  Shove me whole head in ’til the water’s a ring around me neck.  Shake the drops like a dog and press on.  More smog, more work, more change in me pockets. 

        By night there’s dirty great lumps of pea-souper plugging me nostrils, singeing me nose hairs.  The grit of it’s thick enough on me skin to be scraped with a trowel.  I’m coughing like a hag.  But me jacket’s weighed down with honest earnings, me first in eight fucking years.  One more and I’ll call it done.

        I pick him up in Pimlico.  He wants the Old Brompton Road.  He barks the words at me.  I clock him soon as he opens his gob and tug me cap over me scars, in case the fog thins.

“Be a pleasure, sir.”

         He quicksteps alongside me.  Left, right, left, right.  I shuffle me battered boots.  He tuts.  I scuff louder.  Wonder if I can get him to say, ‘Pick your feet up, you lazy mongrel.’ 

He tuts again. 

“You know the way?”

“Yes, sir.”

“Better had.”

The sound waves of his bellow ripple the fog like water against me eardrum.

        I know the way alright.  Know too that the smog’s going soon.  This is goodbye from it to me.  And good riddance from me to him.

        In the park I keep us on the path.  It’s all the same to him.  Right up to us turning onto the jetty.

“Here, you.  This isn’t right.  You bloody fool.  You’ve got us lost.”

“No, sir.  This is it.  Follow me, sir.”

         He does, but cautious, like.  I count the steps.  His and mine.  Four more’ll do it.  Left, right, left, right...

         “You, stop.”  He grabs me.  This time I’m out in front.  “You, get me back to the main road.”

         I stretch me foot out behind.  Rest it on the swirling smog.  The water below lap-laps soft and easy.

“Sorry, Sergeant-Major, this is as far as we’re going.”

         I jerk me arm, the one he’s holding, and grab his scruff with me other.  I pull and push both together.  He yelps like a kicked pup.  Hits the water with a splash.  Thrashes around.  Barks up at me.  Spatters water with clumsy kicks.  Hollers.  I wait, patient, like.  ’Til down he goes.  Then I raise me hand to pat the smog on the back.

“Cheers, mucker.”

Judge’s comments:

I like this story for the writer's very successful use of the quirky narrator's voice. I also like the slightly gothic, macabre mood. Blind Leading is a very unified tale - with some beautiful poetic language.

Case Study

Prolitzer Prize 2013, runner up

Alison Wassell

She is eighteen; barely out of school herself.  Anna has never bought her own food, ironed her own clothes, nor been kissed by anyone to whom she is not related.  In her college hall of residence she is the least interesting person she knows.  Her stock of anecdotes about herself is running dangerously low.  She once broke a window in the school canteen.  It was an accident, she adds, reluctantly.  She whitened her tennis shoes with chalk before an inspection and got away with it.  As the stories leave her mouth she despises herself.  She is ashamed of the things she has not done.

        Rose is a ten year old girl.  She is one of a family of five girls, of which only one is older than she is.  The family lived for quite a time in a very poor area in one room before moving to their present address, which is still in a slum area.  The child’s mother is known as one of the main prostitutes of the district and seems to have little interest in any of her children.

         Anna smiles as she puts down her pen.  Nobody can consider her a child now.  She imagines the conversation around the Christmas dinner table.

         ‘The school was in the red light district,’ she will say, casually, as she arranges her napkin on her lap.  She will pause long enough for them to take the information in, and be suitably impressed.  She saw a painting, years ago, of St Francis in his robe, with his arms outstretched and all the animals flocking to him.  This is how she will be, but with children instead of animals.

         ‘I had them eating out of the palm of my hand,’ she will say, as her father carves the turkey.

          In the flesh, Rose is somewhat less appealing.  In fact, she smells of days old, dried urine and sweat, combined with other things that Anna is unable to identify.  Dirt is ingrained in her skin and compacted under her fingernails.  Anna is proud that she does not flinch when Rose takes her hand in the playground.  She is careful to wash afterwards, fearing embarrassing diseases of the skin.  She has heard horror stories from older, battle-hardened students.  Now, though, in the warmth of her college room, Rose is merely a case study, a lost soul to be saved.  Anna writes again.

         Rose was kept away from school for quite a long time in order to help look after the baby while the mother was out.  Consequently, she became rather backward at school, and was in a remedial class last year.  Recently, she has been coming to school regularly and is now in the class just lower than the scholarship class.  The father has left home, but Rose tells me he is a doctor’s assistant.  The family are living off National Assistance and find it quite difficult to make ends meet.

         Anna is not entirely sure what National Assistance is.  She has only recently come across the phrase ‘red light district’.

         ‘I have led a sheltered life,’ she jokes to her new friends, making light of her ignorance.  They are as ignorant as she is, although she is yet to realise this.  She lives in terror of being unmasked as someone incapable of adult understanding.

         Rose’s clothing is very poor and she wears the same garments every day.  These consist of vest and knickers, a thin cotton dress and a cardigan which is badly in need of mending.  She wears Wellingtons if it is wet and gym shoes when it is dry.  The mother once sent to school to ask the class teacher whether she had any shoes she could spare for the child.  The clothes, especially the underclothes, are not clean.  The knickers are quite thin, and the child’s body can almost be seen through them.

          Anna yawns, stretches, and puts all thoughts of Rose away for the night as her friend arrives with two mugs of cocoa.  They compete with stories of the strange creatures that have been assigned to them.  Growing in confidence, Anna mimics them.

          ‘Can we ‘ave us milk now?’ she says, in her version of a broad Yorkshire accent.  Both girls collapse, giggling, onto the bed.

The new student teacher smells of soap.  This, Rose thinks, is the best thing about her.  She likes to stand next to her, breathing in her scent.  It makes Rose feel clean.  She likes the student’s clothes too.  Almost every day she wears something different.  Once, when she was having her sums marked, Rose reached out and touched her dress.  It was stiff, as though it had never been worn before.  Rose has never worn anything new.  The student felt something and looked down at Rose’s hand.  Quickly, Rose pulled it away.  The student smiled, but as she walked away she examined her dress, where the hand had been, as though she was making sure there were no marks.  Rose stopped liking her after that, although she still likes the way she smells.

         The student stands in front of the class pretending to be a teacher.  They are going to think about the five senses.  As she talks, the student holds up one hand, as though they won’t understand, otherwise, how many five is.  She touches a finger as she names each sense.  Sight, hearing, taste, touch, smell.  She makes them repeat the words, then turns to write them on the blackboard.  She is unused to doing this and the chalk snaps in her hand.  She crawls under the teacher’s desk to retrieve the broken piece.  Her cheeks turn pink as some of the children giggle and whisper.  She stands up straight and takes a deep breath.  Rose can tell that she is trying to copy the face the teacher does when she is not pleased.  On the student, it looks wrong.  Rose smiles.

‘Rose, pay attention please,’ snaps the student.

        At last, the class is quiet.  The student perches on the edge of the teacher’s desk and clasps her hands together. 

        ‘Over the weekend, I want you all to do something for me,’ she announces, as though she is giving them a special treat.  She wants them to think very hard about the five senses and make a list of the things they see, hear, taste, touch and smell.  She touches her fingers again as she explains.  It will be a bit like a poem, she says.  Next week, they will paint some pictures to go with what they have written.  Rose puts up her hand.

‘Please Miss,’ she says, ‘I don’t have a pencil at home.’ 

        The student tells her not to be silly.  Everyone has pencils at home.  Rose looks down at her desk.  She has no paper at home either.  The bell rings for home time.  The student stands up.  She is looking forward to reading their work on Monday.  On her way out Rose pauses at the teacher’s desk and takes a pencil out of her pot.  She hides it up the sleeve of her cardigan.

Rose has quite a good vocabulary, compared with the rest of the class.  Her sentences are clear and reasonably well constructed.  She expresses herself in quite an adult way.  Her written work is good when she tries.  Although she has had to take so much responsibility at home, there are times when Rose is inclined to be silly.  This cannot really be explained.  Sometimes she is as sensible a person as you could wish for and other times she cannot even be trusted to wash her hands sensibly.  She is inclined to daydream and play with her hair endlessly.  She seems extremely suspicious of me.

         Anna wonders if she should have chosen some other child for her case study.  Something about the way Rose looks at her is unnerving; as though she can see things that no-one else sees.  At least she has stopped trying to hold her hand.

Rose sits at the kitchen table, brushing crumbs onto the floor to clear a space.  She smoothes out the only paper she can find, which is a letter asking for money.  On the back she draws shaky lines to make five columns.  She writes a word at the top of each one.  Chewing the end of the stolen pencil, she thinks about the student with her soapy smell and her new dress and the way she speaks to them as though they are slow and stupid.  Rose is neither slow nor stupid.  She knows what the student wants.  She wants them to write about the things she knows from her own life; things that will make beautiful paintings for the walls.

         Rose presses her fingers into her eyes.  In the darkness, she imagines the student’s life.  She pictures flowers in gardens, bread baking, the warmth of a patchwork quilt, the patter of raindrops on a bedroom window.  It is a storybook life.  Rose hears the door open and close, and senses someone standing over her.  She smells the pub on him.  She keeps her fingers pressed into her eyes.

        The chair creaks as he sits down.  She hears him striking a match.  Reluctantly, she looks up.  The flame glows in the dark like an orange teardrop.  He smiles as he holds the match for as long as he can then, at the last minute, lights his cigarette.  He extinguishes the teardrop and casts the spent match carelessly onto the floor.  He asks what she is doing.

‘Nothing,’ she mumbles, staring at the crumpled paper.

‘Nothing Uncle Jack,’ he corrects her. 

        He is not her uncle.  She says nothing.  He comes over to the table.  Ash falls onto the paper.  She meets his eye as his top lip curls into a sneer.

‘Bit of a scholar then, are we?’ he says.

        She grips the pencil, imagining stabbing him with it.  She says nothing.  He steps back, his eyes moving up and down her body as he puffs pensively on his cigarette.

‘Stand up,’ he tells her. 

        She knows better than to disobey.  He takes her arm and pulls her from behind the table.  She feels him looking through her clothes.

        ‘Take that off,’ he commands, indicating her cardigan, which has a hole in the elbow and several missing buttons. 

She does as he asks.  He smokes and watches.

‘And the dress,’ he says. 

        Slowly, she pulls it over her head.  She stands in front of him in her vest and knickers, which have turned grey with age.  She knows her skin shows through them.  She hugs herself.  She wets herself a bit and squeezes her legs together to stop any more coming out.  He removes the cigarette and licks his lips before he speaks.

‘Just as well you’re a scholar,’ he says. 

He laughs, although both of them know nothing is funny.

‘No man will ever pay for you,’ he adds. 

        He takes her hand and draws her towards him.  For a moment, he holds her, seeming almost kind.  Her skin sizzles as he extinguishes his cigarette on her arm.  She bites her lip and does not make a sound.  He throws her dress at her.

‘Cover yourself up before I’m sick,’ he says. 

        He puts the cigarette packet in his pocket and says to tell her mother he’ll be back for what he’s owed.

         Rose sits for a long time.  She wants not to think about anything.  She bites down hard on her lip until she tastes blood, hoping that the pain will take all her other thoughts away.  It doesn’t.  She thinks of how Uncle Jack, who is not her uncle, looked at her, and she wishes she could wash herself.  She remembers the way the student looked at her once when they were changing for PE.  She stared, with a look on her face as though there was a bad smell right under her nose.  Then she had wrote something in her notebook.

          Rose does not care any more about pleasing the student.  She picks up the pencil and begins to write.  She writes about the orange teardrop, the sound of the creaking chair, the taste of blood, the raw tender way her burned flesh feels when she is brave enough to touch it.  She writes about what she smells, which is mostly herself.  She knows she smells bad, because of all the times she has wet herself.  The wee comes from fear.  Rose wonders if the student knows about fear.  She folds the paper lots of times and stuffs it into the pocket of her dress.  She decides to keep the stolen pencil.

The student sits on the teacher’s desk, swinging her legs.  She smiles and rubs her hands together.

‘Who will start us off?’ she asks. 

        Hands wave in the air.  Rose, sitting alone at the back, stares at her desk.  The folded-up paper is still in her pocket.  The student chooses someone.  The girl goes to the front of the class.  Holding her paper in front of her face, she reads.  She smelled the cake her mother baked for Sunday tea.  She heard birds singing in the tree.  She saw lambs skipping in a field.  It is November.  The student is still smiling.

‘How lovely,’ she says. 

        The girl goes back to her seat and the student points at someone else.  As the children go on reading their lists she claps and jiggles up and down like a little girl who needs the toilet. 

Only Rose is left.  She tries to scrape the dirt from under her nails, not looking at the student, who calls her anyway.  She does not stand up.

‘I forgot,’ she mumbles. 

        Some of the student’s happiness drains away.  The silence forces Rose to look up.  The student tries to make a teacher face.

‘I’m not cross,’ she says, ‘but I am disappointed.’ 

Rose returns to cleaning her nails.

This, then, is Rose, a child with a rather unfortunate home background.  She is a retiring person who keeps her emotions locked up inside her.  I found it most difficult to get her to talk to me at all.  At times, she can be lazy.  When I set homework for the class, she was the only one who did not bother to complete it.  Towards the end of my time at the school her attendance became very infrequent again.  One wonders what chance she has in the future.

        Anna puts down her pen, yawns and stretches.  She needs to pack, ready to go home for the Christmas holidays.  As she folds her clothes she rehearses in her head the stories she will tell about Rose, and the others.  She thinks fondly of them, now that she has left them behind.  She allows herself a satisfied smile.

Judge’s comments:

An achieved portrait of an abused and neglected young girl written from two perspectives - the girl and her student teacher.

The Prolitzer Prize for Prose writing, 2012

We are delighted to announce the winners of our 2012 Prolitzer Prize.

Winner: Caroline Healy with Baby River.

Caroline wins £130 and is published in issue 9 of Prole.

Our runners up are:

Sophie Flavell with A Fig Still Warm from the Sun


Mark Wagstaff with The Forties.

Sophie and Mark win £30 each.

Many thanks to our judge, Mark Piggott. He has picked three fantastic pieces.

We hope to share the stories here, alongside the judge's comments, within the next week or so.

Many thanks to all those who entered our competition. The standard of entries was very high and it was a pleasure to read them all.

All revenues created by the competition will be reinvested in Prole to help us develop into the future.

The Prolitzer Prize winners, 2011

Thank you for all of your entries, we really enjoyed reading them. The editors

here made a shortlist of ten pieces and sent them off to New Zealand for our

judge, Stephen Ross, to pick his top three.


Devil’s Eye, by Barbara Leahy.

Barbara wins £130 and is published in the current issue of Prole, Poetry and Prose.

Runners up

Llosgi (To burn), by Melanie Marshall.

Tongue-Tied, by Kelly Hayes-Raitt

Melanie and Kelly both win £30.

The winning pieces are published below with the judges comments. Barabara's 'Devil's Eye' can also be read in issue 6 of Prole, available here.

Devil's Eye – Winner of the Prolitzer Prize, 2011

Barbara Leahy

Last winter, when Grandad got sick, we had to go to stay with him for a few days. We didn't have a car anymore so Mum took me and Jamie on the train. All the way to Cork Jamie climbed on the seats and pestered Mum for sweets from the trolley. He was only five, a baby really. I was nine, too old for doing the fool. Even Mum said I was the man of the house now.

        I turned my back on them both and looked out the window. It was getting dark and I could see my reflection shadowy and dim on the other side of the glass, flying along like a ghost clinging to the speeding train. One day, when we were going to Howth, the train stopped in between stations and the inspector came and told Mum that there was a body on the tracks. We had to get off and go home in a taxi. I wondered what it would be like to run over a body. The train would come off the rails. Or maybe not; bodies were mostly soft after all. It might just feel like a bump and then the train would keep going without anyone noticing. I wondered how far the bloodstains would stretch along the tracks.

        Grandad didn't like me. Once I heard him telling Mum to "keep a sharp eye on that one, he has his father's glint." Then Mum caught me listening by the door and sent me out into the garden. I never let on I heard; I knew I'd get him back for it someday.

         Grandad lived in a dirty old cottage that smelled funny. When we arrived Mum went around opening all the windows. There were only two rooms downstairs and a kind of bedroom up a wobbly stairs in what was really the attic. The toilet was in a shed outside the backdoor and there was no bath or shower. Mum always tried to clean the place up a bit but then Grandad would get annoyed and tell her to stop fussing.

        At night Mum slept on the couch in the front room and I slept with Jamie on an old mattress next to Grandad's bed. Grandad made funny noises as if he was choking while he slept and sometimes he talked in his sleep. There was no electric light in the room and if he needed to go to the outhouse during the night I was supposed to help him down the stairs in the dark. I used to listen to him spluttering and groaning in his sleep and if I heard him heave himself upright I'd shut my eyes tighter and pretend to be sound asleep. Sometimes he'd call my name so loud that Mum could hear; there was nothing for it then but to go. His waxy fingers would clutch my hand and he'd shuffle his way to the stairs, breathing so heavily I could feel my hair ruffling in the draught. In the kitchen-light I would see his shapeless nightshirt riding up above his bony blue-veined knees. I tried not to look as the sagging skin swung loose from his legs as he stepped out into the yard.

        On our third day at Grandad's it rained all day. There was no TV to watch and nothing to do. Mum said we were under her feet all day and we should go upstairs to chat to Grandad to give her a break.

         Grandad was sitting up in bed with crumbs of toast and something whitish stuck to the side of his mouth. Every now and then he gave a rattling cough, sending spit and crumbs spraying across the bedclothes. I stood as far away from him as I could. Jamie didn't mind about the spit and he started bouncing on the bed. I thought Grandad would get cross but he only laughed his hoarse old laugh and told me to go and get the toy box from under the sink downstairs.

        Jamie had never seen it before but I knew the box was boring; it was full of old toys that Uncle Jack and Uncle Michael had when they were small boys. There were tin soldiers with the paint peeling off, a mechanical crane that didn't even work, and a whole lot of marbles that I had never bothered looking at.

         For some reason Jamie loved the marbles. He perched on the side of Grandad's bed rolling them around in his hands and letting them drip through his fingers. I watched them form a pool of swirling colours on the stained eiderdown. I had never seen them glow and burn like that before. Grandad wheezed and coughed as he started to explain some of their names to him: ox-blood, purie, devil's eye and tiger. He let him choose his favourite to keep. Then he remembered me and let me choose too. Jamie liked the tiger best but my favourite was the devil's eye. It had a red whirl around the edge and at the centre was a bright yellow eye. If I looked very closely I could see my own eye reflected in the yellow part. When I held it in my palm it looked angry and wild and seemed almost alive. But when I closed my fingers it felt just as cool and smooth to touch as the clear blue purie or the striped tiger.

        Then Dr. Carling called to see Grandad, so we took the marbles downstairs and played with them all afternoon. I soon won the tiger from Jamie but he made such a fuss Mum made me let him win it back. I won and lost the ox-blood several times but I never risked the devil's eye; that was too precious to lose. I liked to know it was safe all the time in my pocket, like a secret lucky charm.

         Before we went to bed that night, Mum told us that Dr. Carling said Grandad's heart was very weak and he should stay in bed for two more weeks. We'd have to stay to help him out.

         “Just two weeks,” she said. “You don't mind, do you, love? You are such a big help to me.”

         I hated her for asking me in her pleading voice, the one she used to use with Dad when he got angry. I knew she had already decided we were staying. I turned away from her and kicked the stupid toy box. If Dad was here he'd make her leave, he could always make her do what he wanted. It wasn't fair, she promised it would only be a few days. It just wasn't fair.

         That was the last night we spent at Grandad's. I must have been dreaming deeply that night because I never heard him getting up. And he mustn't have called for me very loudly because Mum never heard him either. We heard him fall though. He crashed down the stairs from the first step to the last. I stood at the top of the stairs while Mum dragged blankets from the couch to cover him. She looked up then and saw me watching her.

         I heard Grandad moan as I came downstairs. He was lying in a crumpled heap, one leg folded underneath him. His face was greyish and a line of spit hung from his lip to his chin. Mum tried to put a cushion under his head but he moaned again.

         "I'm going to Mrs. Dwyer's to call an ambulance," she said. "Stay with him till I get back. Don't let him move."

        He clawed at her arm with one of his bony hands and opened his mouth, trying to say something.

"Don't worry, Mum, I'll take care of him."

        I sat down on the second step. He lay there staring at me in silence, his lips twitching, his cloudy eyes wide with fear while she hurried next door. I watched him as he lay shivering on the slate floor. I had a feeling we wouldn't have to stay in his house another two weeks after all.

        The ambulance arrived within half an hour but Grandad was dead by the time he reached the hospital. We followed on behind in a taxi with Mum. He had been conscious on the journey - the ambulance men told Mum he was rambling that the devil was watching him, the devil's eye was on him. The old fool. It wasn't the devil's eye, it was the ox-blood. When we got back to the house I found it lying innocently where it had rolled into a corner by the kitchen door. I grabbed it fast before Mum saw it. The devil's eye was where it had always been, tucked into my chest pocket, keeping me safe from harm.

Judge’s comments

This is a polished, fully formed, and engaging piece of writing that works on every level. The young narrator's voice is perfectly rendered. We are easily drawn into his world and his observations of it. The conflicting emotions of childhood, family and responsibility, are effortlessly conveyed, and there is a subtext (almost explicit) that teasingly hints at a darker layer to the narrator.

Llosgi(To Burn) – Runner up, Prolitzer Prize 2011

Melanie Marshall

To catch alight but not to burn, that was the trick. The thing Geraint had been seeking his whole career. His quest was to be consumed by fire and the everlasting life it would bring. Professor of Folklore and Early Magic at Amlwch University, he knew all the texts, how it was written in The Celtic Book of Living and Dying, dating back to 43 AD. 

        He’d related his studies to the ceremonies of Fakirs of India and the forgotten rituals of Kabbalah, but to no avail. He took students on a field trip to Puffin Island, and when the whisky bottle lay drained by the campfire, he suggested they begin chanting. On the Monday he’d faced a lecture theatre of empty seats.

         Geraint slaved over articles for specialist necromancy periodicals, botched attempt after botched attempt until he was simmering in his own regrets, the antithesis of an unsuccessful suicidal.

          And, when all else failed, he’d pitched his tent high on Penmaenmawr mountain. There under the velour sky he recited the verses exactly as they were written. He sprinkled yellow lichens and lungwort over the carcass of a sheep and sent the match spinning from his hand. Wind aggravated the flames, crept over soiled wool. The reek of barbequed lamb wafted over the village. Criminal damage charges from the farmer put an end to the matter.

         This preoccupation left little time for anything else, no wife, no heirs, just a cottage on the beach and a library large enough to provoke envy in an Oxford Don. So when Angharad arrived back in his life one evening, like she’d always been there, he was feeble for her. She stood on the shore hurling a piece of driftwood for her black dog to run after; hair like kelp and peridot eyes. And somewhere, aching in his jaw, thumping in his skull, he saw the girl from school he’d mocked and kissed with equal delight. It was more than a sign, it was a portent. Where had she been since days smoking cigarette butts she’d found on the playing field, their lunchtimes spent huddled by the electric substation, listening to rain fizzing on the wires? He told her immediately of his mission. She did not flinch as others might have done.

        “I know what to do,” came her thin voice. What was there to resist?

         From the depths of her coat she pulled out a Zippo and a can of lighter fluid. They were teenagers again, no books mattered; there were no words to tether him to the shore. Geraint scanned the mass of beach, mountain and village. The glowing dot on the mountainside was the Pen-Y-Bryn pub, housing the nearest inhabitants.

         Angharad poured the liquid over her hand and in one swift movement flicked the lighter. Mouthing rhymes. Eyes fixed on his all the while – not a flicker of pain.

He fought off dismay.

Nice trick. It only burns the fluid; your skin’s not alight.

“Your turn,” she said. He could see the Earth’s core in that smile.

He rolled up his sleeve, her cool white hands steadying the shake.

        The fluid coated him, then the ignition, catching on his hairs. No pain, just blue and gold shimmying up his arm. He didn’t know how long had passed when he dropped to his knees and rolled over in the wet sand to the sound of her laughter.

They agreed to meet in the same spot the next night.

        Until dawn, nightmares engorged in his bed. Tangled around his bare legs like seaweed, tentacles penetrating him, making him bleed. By dawn, his insides felt as contorted and dry as sand dunes, but the mattress was damp to the touch. He spent the day attempting to read by the window, watching for the demise of the sun. Once the lighthouse rays strobed over Menai straits, Geraint barely remembered to tie his shoelaces. Wind propelled him to the pebbles and sand. By the jetty, Angharad stood, coat buoyant and a jerry can at her feet. The panting shape of the dog fetched planks and MDF boards that were strewn on the beach. Together they heaped the dry bits of wood and branches high in a circle, shaped it like the mountain, left a human-shaped gap in the centre; the aperture through which to be born.

“We’ll meet on the other side,” she told him.

“Yes,” he said. “Yes.”

         A douse of petrol hit the back of his throat. Panic tugged at his stomach. She would burn there in front of him. Or worse, be altered. Was there jealousy then, somewhere in the coils of fear?

         Geraint stoked the blaze until the lights flicked off at the Pen-Y-Bryn. The moon’s molten wax spilled over the sea. Having Angharad standing over him like that was treading water and not being able to touch the seabed. Weight on his chest. She soaked herself from the can before pouring the remainder over him. A torrent coursed over his hair and ears, stinging, coating, bringing that curative old smell of being caught in his father’s garage, messing with something he didn’t understand.

         With rivulets of petrol still running down his face,she called in rounded tones, “Every rock, every sod of earth, every drop of saltwater.” Chanting aloud, English words, Welsh words, words without language. She placed her cold, salted tongue on his. In that kiss, blind creatures stirred beneath the waves, dead things buried in the sand, writhed into life.

         The Labrador went first, bounded into the fire. Angharad stepped in after it, into the burning gap at the centre. The fire shimmered, raged. She was encased in flames, yet repelling them. It was difficult to tell where she ended and the fire began, until there was only smoke. Geraint wanted to run in, screaming, abandon all remaining logic. But he’d been waiting his whole life. Very slowly he neared the flames, held his breath. Heat reached into his pores. Through the swathes of smoke, a black puppy sat on the sand.

          Breathing again, he passed inside the orange wall. How beautiful, the colours, the searing, dizzying heat. He could not leave, would not. He was immortal, inflammable, beyond. It was hard to remember when he’d last felt joy like this. Cheap polyester melted, muscle buckled and shrank back from bone. He stopped moving, drugged by sweet smoke, pork crackling, singed hair.

          On the beach ahead, an image disrupted by rising cinders: a little girl in a dark coat, on all fours, down on her stomach, slithering back into the sea.

          The boil and mutation of each cell. The bubble and swell under his eyelids. But then the agony, itching at first, soon thrashing beneath the skin. Flames burst through the cage of his chest and devoured his still-beating heart.

A local man out for an early morning jog dragged a boy of no more than ten years old from a six foot bonfire. His body charred and his flesh still hot to the touch.

Judge’s comments

This is an intriguing and engaging story that works on an almost mystical level, as befitting its subject. There is an assured use of language and imagery, and the story successfully functions according to its own internal logic and flow. It is a rewarding read.

Tongue-Tied – Runner up, Prolitzer Prize, 2011

Kelly Hayes-Raitt

   The one I want to wrap in my arms and bring home is Nebras.

            I didn’t even know her name when I return to Iraq shortly after the assault on Baghdad.  I am armed only with a photo of a beggar touching her nose with her tongue.

           I had met her a few months before when I’d traveled to Iraq with a women’s delegation, just five weeks before the U.S. bombings and invasion.  Unfazed by impending disaster, the little girl, old enough to be in primary school, had begged for handouts in a popular market.  I had taught her to touch her nose with her tongue.  We’d teased;  clearly she wasn’t used to an adult making faces at her and delighting in her company.  She’d followed me around the souk nearly swallowing her tongue in laughter as she imitated my nose-touching stunt.

         She was cold.  The dirty scarf wrapped loosely around her neck neither protected her from the chill nor hid her calculating ability to work the shoppers.  Without a translator, the most I gathered was a photo of a gleeful girl with laughing eyes and an incredibly acrobatic tongue.

         When I return to Iraq five months later to find how war had touched the people who had so deeply touched me, translators are reluctant to take me to the souk.  The mood in Baghdad has shifted;  gunfire is heard nightly and no one wants to be responsible for my harm.  Finally, the day before I am to leave, I convince one translator to take me “shopping.”  I canvass the cluttered shops for hours, flashing the little girl’s photo.

         “Yes, that’s Nebras.”  Finally, a shopkeeper recognizes the girl whose deep, brown eyes had humanized the smoldering CNN newscasts that absorbed my life back home.  “But I haven’t seen her in a while.  Not since before the war.”

          I catch my breath.  I had just learned Nebras’ name.  She can’t be one of the thousands of nameless Iraqis we dismissively call “collateral damage.”  I step out into the bright sunlight and my translator catches my arm.

          “We need to leave,” he insists.  The equally insistent gunfire across the river rattles my nerve.  I feel conspicuous in the souk’s crowded narrow alleys.  People dart, avoiding eye contact.  Shops close prematurely.  Barricaded soldiers seem hyper-alert in the edgy heat.

         As we worm our way back to our car, I stifle my creeping panic.  Behind me, a commotion suddenly erupts and I turn around to see a crowd of men shoving toward me.  I freeze.  The shopkeepers part, revealing the terrified eyes of a familiar elfish girl they drag toward me by the scruff of her T-shirt.

          Nebras doesn’t recognize me at first.  Not until I show her photos of herself does she smile.  Backed against a shop facing a tight crowd of curious men, Nebras retreats shyly, studying her photo intently.  I shoo back the men who had treated this beggar only as a nuisance and, kneeling before her, I ask the interpreter to tell her I had come from America to see her.

          Without warning, the overwhelmed girl lunges forward and kisses me on the lips. 

          We buy her an ice cream from a passing vendor.  She unwraps it and holds it out to me.  My defenses melt.  After two weeks of rigorous attention to all food and water that passed my lips, I lick the sweet streetfare sacrificing my intestines to this little girl’s pleasure at hosting a visitor with all she could offer. 

          She’s an only child who doesn’t know her age.  It was particularly ironic that we had met outside the Al Mustanseria University, the world’s oldest science college, built in 1233.  This schoolless girl’s only education is learned navigating the streets outside the university’s ancient walls. 

         I empty my purse of dinars, stuffing the oily bills into her plastic purse.  She gleefully buys another ice cream for us to share.

         Military helicopters zigzag overhead.  Rumors that the American troops had closed bridges and jammed traffic make us jittery.  Nebras escorts me out of the dicey souk, grabbing my hand and expertly keeping my skirt from being snagged by the ubiquitous wartime razor wire.

         As we pass a store being repainted, she mentions it had been hit during the war’s initial attacks.  She had spent the long nights of the early bombings in a nearby mosque.

         I hug her harder than I intended.  I feel her wiry hair against my cheek, her grungy T-shirt against my shoulder, her warm, open heart so willing to accept mine.

And then I’m gone.

Judge’s comments

There is clarity and lightness to the writing of this story -- a deft touch -- that never missteps into sentimentality. A good story should "show" rather than "tell", and this story succeeds. It captures the narrator's feelings towards the young girl with brevity and precision, colours in the story's setting equally so, and then snaps us with a perfect ending.

Kelly is the author of several award-winning articles.  A recipient of five writing fellowships over three years, she has lived in writing colonies as far-flung as Bialystok, Poland.  She is a popular college lecturer and accomplished public speaker and divides her time between Los Angeles, CA, and Ajijic, Mexico.  She blogs at

"Tongue Tied" is the first chapter of Kelly's forthcoming journalistic memoir about her experiences with Iraqi and Palestinian refugees.  It originally appeared in Female Nomad and Friends:  Tales of Breaking Free and Breaking Bread Around the World by Rita Golden Gelman with Maria Altobelli, published by Three Rivers Press, an imprint of the Crown Publishing Group, a division of Random House, Inc., in June 2010.  It was reprinted in The Best Women’s Travel Writing 2011, edited by Lavinia Spalding, published by Travelers’ Tales, an imprint of Solas House, Inc.

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Her poems may be found in several "Open To Interpretation" coffee table books.  Her plays have been produced in Seattle, Portland and at the West Coast Ensemble in Hollywood, CA.  She was a "Distinguished Writer in Residence" at Seattle University and recently received an Honourable Mention in NIMROD'S Katherine Anne Porter competition.   Most recently, her work may be found in CALYX, SKIVE, PROLE and EP;PHANY, and she has work forthcoming in NIMROD. 

     Sue has been a presenter at several writer's conferences and workshops in the United states and is excited to be making a trip to the UK this coming fall.

Prolitzer Prize for prose writing, 2015

The results are in!

Many of the entries (both stories and essays) for this year’s Prolitzer Short Fiction Prize possess a darkness of mood and tone; almost all explore themes of uprootedness and uncertainty. The story I chose as the winner, ‘Dissolving’ (Melanie Whipman), is typical in that it is dark and introspective. It is also beautifully written – the sentences are taut and powerful; the reader has to work hard to piece together the details given to us in the story: a man is being held hostage, along with another. He is about to be executed. In the minutes before his death, he recalls aspects of his life, his upbringing in Sussex, his schooldays and teachers, his relationship with his father. A solemn tale, it is also devoid of self-pity and political polemic. No character is judged, including the protagonist’s executioners. In doing this, the writer, who weaves the story around the central and repeating image of a dissolving sugar cube, is able to portray how fragile life is, how quickly it passes and how, increasingly, global politics permeates all of our lives. It’s both a timely and stunning piece of writing, and a worthy winner.

My choice for second place is ‘The Enormous Building Site’ (Aiden O'Reilly). This story, about a young Irishman working on a building site in North-west London, is a vivid, evocative story with characters that stayed with me long after I’d read it. It’s a real gift to be able to create characters who leap off the page in a few sentences, who the reader will care deeply about - and this story manages to do that in spades. I felt it could go on for a lot longer and was perhaps the basis of a novella or novel.

Third place goes to ‘Bedtime Drink’ (Karina Vidler). A dark tale about a woman who slips back into the lives of her children once her ex-husband and his new wife are out of the house. Though the woman has a dastardly plan for herself and her children, the writer does a wonderful job of conveying this Medea-like character’s private despair and hence the reader has a greater understanding of her dark motives. A distilled, poetic piece.

Also commended: ‘This Story Could end in Tooting Bec’ (Shauna Mackay), ‘A Very Tall Lady’ (Catherine McNamara) and ‘Girls on Motorbikes’ (Emma Timpany). 

Jaki McCarrick

Melanie Whipman


The guard holds the white cube between his finger and thumb. He’s the one who smokes menthols, who hawks up his phlegm so violently he sounds like he’s going to choke. In the gloom of the cell I can’t make it out. I think it’s a dice, and then, when I see what it is I doubt myself. He clears his throat, bangs a fist against his chest, shoves out his chin and gobs onto the dirt floor.


There’s the damp weight of him against my shoulder, the flabby give of his stomach and a waft of mint and sweat. He pulls me away from the wall and I feel the soft scrape of his nails on my palm as he pushes it into my hand.

I identify it by touch - a sugar lump.

I think of Mrs Shepherd. Holmbush infant school. Delivering the registers with Graham Streader. Our fingertips leave moist prints on the coloured covers. One per class. The teacher’s looking up, smiling, holding out a hand; coming to meet us in a waft of chalk and perfume. Thank you Graham, thank you Michael. Mrs Shepherd smelled of parma violets; she had a giant screw-top jar of blurred-edged-sugar-lumps. She let us ram our hands in, pull one out and stuff it in our mouths. There’ll be a rule against that kind of thing now, health and safety or something. We’d run across to the prefab huts, breath steaming the air, the second cube safe in our pockets, saved for break-time, to have with the milk. Bottles clinking, blue straws. Everyone else not being able to get enough of the stuff, but me hating the warm, rancid creaminess, and sticking my sugar lump behind my front teeth and sucking the milk through it.

‘Did he give you one too?’

He hasn’t spoken before. I didn’t know whether he was asleep or unconscious or dead when they brought me in this morning. I recognised him instantly from his shirt. He was curled up, a human-shaped husk in the corner of the room. I recognised the floral fabric. A blue that was once azure but is now a grubby indigo. You can hardly make out the swallows and daisies. He worked on the same floor as me. He was there when they took us. Afterwards, we were moved on and kept apart. They brought us together again as a group once, a few weeks ago, to make a video. One of the journalists read from a script. I knew him vaguely. He was from Solihull. Played golf. He was the type of man my dad would have been proud of - the sheet of paper quivered but the golfer kept his voice steady and his shoulders back. Solid. I’ve not seen him since.The man on the floor is a foreigner. European. Slight, effeminate, immaculate and camp. Was all those things. Odd he should have lasted this long. Perhaps he’s been dishing out favours. It seems churlish not to answer him now.

‘Yeah, he did.’ I say.

‘A sugar lump. What the fuck’s that about?’

When I’ve deciphered his words through his accent, broken teeth and swollen lips I shrug.

‘It means it’s our turn.’

‘Another video?’


He looks at me. I see him moving out of the corner of my eye, twisting on his feet and backside to face me. It makes me feel uncomfortable. This isn’t the place people look at each other. The guards are careful to avoid eye contact. His shoulders start to shake and he makes a wheezing, choking sound. At first I think he’s crying, but it’s laughter.

‘Isn’t it supposed to be a cigarette? Executioner’s last gift?’

I shrug.

‘Would have liked a ciggie. Slave to the weed, me.’

A phrase my dad used. Never be a slave to the weed boy. I can still see him. Rolling his own, finger-tipping the tobacco onto the little Rizla sheet, running the tip of his tongue along the edge and tucking in the stray ends with the end of a match. The phrase sounds anachronistic here, in this place, with this man’s accent.

‘I don’t smoke.’

He shuffles towards me.

‘What was the point? We can’t fucking eat them.’

He’s right. Our hands are tied behind our backs, the grainy cube squeezed tight in our palms.

‘We could stick em up our arses.’

I smile and my jaw hurts and something splits open in the corner of my mouth.

‘Could do.’

I clench my fist tighter to feel the shape of it. The sharp edges crumble as I squeeze. I used to know a girl in junior school who had a horse. She wore her hair in a high, shiny pony-tail. When she trotted, both tails used to swing and bounce in time. She’d feed it sugar lumps and I’d watch its tongue on the skin of her palm and I’d get a hard-on. We went out for a while, but it didn’t last. Even Dad said I was punching above my weight.

‘They’re leaving.’

His accent could be Italian or Spanish. Something sing-song.

‘Most of them have gone already.’

All morning there have been the sounds of departure. Shouts, truck doors slamming, the clatter of cans, the slap of folding canvas, engines revving and the spit of sand from accelerating tyres. And gun shots.

‘We’re the last.’

There were sixteen of us at one time. Five from my department. We usually ate in the canteen but it was someone’s birthday that day, so we went to the mall for lunch. I didn’t even know his name, the guy whose birthday it was. Last week the menthol guard told me the others were dead.

‘They might take us? They could still use us, right? For an exchange? Why else would they keep us this long?’

He reminds me suddenly of my father. The deliberate blindness. And physically. The thinness. The bones of his face look like they’re trying to push through his skin. It spikes a memory of Dad at the end. I remember the shock of him in his hospital gown. How diminished he seemed. He was always such a big, explosive man. A pint drinker. A three-sugars-in-his-tea man. A difficult-to-live-up-to man. A don’t darken my doorstep again man. The type of man who would call this foreigner a chutney chaser, a shirt lifter. At the hospital I wasn’t sure he’d agree to see me, but he beckoned me into his private room. Hospital’s a leveller, son, he said. He was propped upright against his pillows, ramrod straight. He was always like that - clear in his views, sharp and crystalline. There was never any giving way. No crumbling. No dissolving. He was a performer, my dad, even at the end he was acting. The ‘son’ was for the pretty nurse. If he’d had the energy he’d have clapped me on the shoulder and winked at her. Never Say Die eh?

‘You’re the artist aren’t you?’


My cellmate shakes his head.

‘You always had a sketch pad. I used to see you drawing in the canteen.’

He doesn’t seem so camp now. That irritating ebullience has gone. He used to watch me from a distance. He’d stand and stare in his buttoned-up floral shirts and narrow jeans and pointed, polished shoes. He’d approach me from an angle. Would meander past, trailing his fingers along the back of my chair.

‘I used to draw a bit. I’m married. Pictures of my wife.’

Lately I worry that I can no longer draw her from memory. When I try to picture her face it dissolves and distorts.

Outside there’s a watery cough, a rasp of movement, the jangle of keys. The guard will have taken the last drag from the butt of his cigarette, will be crushing it out between thumb and forefinger and will be chucking it on the pile by the wall. 


My cellmate has levered himself up and is kneeling with his back to me, his tied hands pushed up towards my face.

‘Take it.’

His fingers tremble. They’re black with dirt and blood. The sugar lump gleams white against his curled palm. He jiggles it up and down.


I’m sitting cross-legged, leaning against the wall. I shake my head but he’s facing away from me. He came this close to me once in a bar. It was a departmental night out. I’d got separated from my colleagues and he found me, or followed me. He pulled up a stool, and bought me a Tusker, sliding it along the sticky bar. He was so close I could smell the leather of his jacket and the spice of his after-shave. His knee-cap was pressed against my thigh. He touched my wrist when I took the bottle and looked me straight in the eyes. You don’t fool me, he said, swirling his fingertips along the inside of my arm. I punched him off his stool.

‘Please.’ his voice breaks.

I still remember the feel of his long, slim fingers against my skin.

There’s the grate of the key in the lock. The sound of bolts being drawn.

I feel hot and prickly.

‘He’s coming. Get up.’

The door bangs open. The sun pours in, as smooth and sweet as lager. A gust of wind eddies the dirt floor. Anthony is still on his knees. I’m worried he’ll cry. He looks up at the guard standing in the doorway and he laughs.

‘Weather for drying.’ he says in his Italian accent.

Weather for drying. I see Mum with a basket of washing and the tips of her slippered feet beneath the folds of cotton as she pegs out the sheets.

‘What you say?’

The guard scowls and scratches his groin.

Something that feels like a laugh bubbles up in my chest.

‘How d’you know those phrases? Where did you learn them?’

‘Everywhere. I lived with a boxer in Lincoln once. Six years. Now take the fucking sugar.’

I get onto my knees, spread my legs for balance, lean forward, push my face into his hand, feel the rasp of his finger nails against my lips and then the square of sugar shoved into my dry mouth.

‘Now me. Quick.’

The guard is motionless in the doorway.

I draw up one leg, fold my chest forward, grunt and push up from the other toe. I’m up on both feet, swaying. My cellmate is on his knees again, shuffling behind me. I open my hand, and hold it steady. There is the damp huff of breath, then the weight and warmth of his lips and I remember the pressure of Graham’s lips on mine in the geography hut and the sticky, rising swell of pleasure before I hit him so hard his nose cracked.

The guard is coughing and thumping his chest.


I keep my tongue still, holding the cube against the side of my cheek. We had the polio vaccine on a sugar cube. The nurse squirting it on, the gentle swell of her blue uniform against the shiny, complicated buckle of her navy belt, her fingers cupping my chin and the soft weight of her hand on my head and then the sugar dissolving on my tongue.

‘Time.’ The guard gestures with his chin.

He supports us both as we come squinting and shivering into the glare. We stumble like boys in a three-legged race. School sports day, Graham’s calf and thigh against mine. They call it the bear sun this time of year. There’s no warmth in the brightness. Every country has its colour. Here it’s sand - the low lemon sun, the dusty ground, the pale buildings, the scattered handful of tan goats, the beige canvas trucks. I try to picture the green of home, the soft Sussex sun on the field behind my parents’ house where I used to lie hidden in the grass as a boy, chewing the sap from stalks, waiting for the farmer to drive the sheep in, the herd milling around me like grounded clouds.

There are half a dozen of them left, in desert camouflage, cradling machine guns. One is holding up a video camera. They fall silent when they see us.

The menthol guard shoves us onto our knees and we kneel in the dirt, eyes closed against the brightness. Our shoulders touch and steady against each other. I feel the shivering warmth of him through his shirt. We turn to look at each other. He smiles.

‘My name’s Anthony.’

‘I know.’ I say.

‘No hoods.’

His teeth are chattering.

‘Reckon we’ll be on Youtube?’

There’s the clunk and metallic rattle of chambers being loaded. I press closer to him and work the cube between my teeth. I focus on his eyes. They are a deep blue, the only real colour in this beige faded landscape. I think of the blue of a summer Sussex sky. As they fire I bite down and the cube dissolves, my mouth flooding with its sweetness.

Aiden O'Reilly

The enormous building site


Fergal peeled off his sock and exposed his foot. He dipped it in the toilet bowl and flushed. The foot shone translucent like something extracted from a jar of formaldehyde. He closed the lid of the toilet, turned, sat down and set to work. This quick-set concrete they were working with now was lethal stuff. It burnt into the skin and bonded within seconds. He nipped the edges of a scab with the Stanley blade, coaxing a flake loose, making skirmishes against the pain barrier.

The noises of the site took on a woody tone through the toilet walls: whine of a drill, rumble of a dumper, flutter of tarp in the wind. They would notice him missing. Not that it mattered, he just didn’t want them laughing at the idea of him spending half an hour on the jacks. He folded a wad of toilet paper and dabbed the seep of red on his heel. The plasters from the chemist were barely big enough to cover the area of raw flesh. He patched on several layers criss-cross. Now he was girded and ready to take up the shovel again.

Dermot gave a nod and straightened his back.

"There's work enough there yet for four days. For three men for four days. He didn't leave us with our hands in our pockets."

Fergal laughed and swung a few stabs at the clay to carve a clean edge. He liked to listen to this London-tinged Fermanagh accent. 

"People don't know what hard work is any more. In my day – Manchester it was – it was fourteen hours a day of digging. Digging digging digging. Till there was muscles on your muscles. Like a workhorse. Not even a horse. The horse can keep his neck straight. Arragh."

Dermot dismissed the toiling horse, spat on his hands. He wore a suit so worn it only occurred to Fergal one morning with a jolt of recognition that it was a suit.

A metallic clang sounded high in the air. Fergal looked up to watch the scaffold team setting up the fifth storey platform. An aluminium tube snaked upwards, passed hand over hand. It kept knocking against the horizontals and ringing out. The right-angled structure shone in the sun. Fergal thought of how nice it would be to be a skyworker, slotting bright poles together to make such airy constructions.

"Maybe they're right, and hard work is only for donkeys. My son now, he stayed on at school. The building sites were not for him. The next thing is, he tells me he wants to join the police force. To be a bobby."

He made the word sound shameful and ludicrous.

They worked together staking out the new trenches with orange twine. The site under their responsibility was just one small part of a massive construction project. Bands of caution tape closed off their section from the rest.


As he washed his boots by the barrel that evening, Fergal was shadowed by a feeling of re-enactment. What was he doing here? What were his plans? This was the age of Grand Theft Auto, of interpersonal skills and career consultancies. He should be playing a game called Construction Site, not here working on one, with the skin cracked on his hands, his feet leaking blood and his head a muddle after five hours sleep. Soon a whole year of this would have passed.

"Boysoboysoboys. Another day another dollar. We're on a winner now," Shane whispered behind him. They shared a flat in Willesden. "I can see you're getting good at this. I learned you well."

Fergal had run into Shane at a house party in the early days. Although they were both about the same age, Shane had already been working an indeterminate period of time in London. The way Shane sprinkled his sentences with the word 'sorted' made an immediate impression on Fergal. A job, DSS, a cheap flat, a place to buy booze at two in the morning – all was within Shane's power to sort. On a tip that same night, Fergal had landed a few weeks’ work in a pizza factory in Kingsbury.

"Fuck the Jobcentre, that's only for the natives," said Shane.

"Hakeem’s Digitals across the way, he’ll sort you with a decent iPhone," said Shane.


At home that evening, Shane perched on the windowsill and smoked. He inhaled the smoke deeply according to the maxim what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Fergal peeled and chopped his booster combo of fruit: kiwi, bananas, cantaloupe and raspberries. When you push your metabolism to the brink every day, you need a vitamin charge. That's what the Nigerian greengrocer had said. If Shane were to fall from the windowsill he would hit the pavement splat just opposite the greengrocers.         

"I've called in the concrete pourers for Thursday morning."

This was news to Fergal.

"How did you do that?"

"I told the concrete crew we're ready."

"But we’re only labourers."

Shane emitted a fart noise. "There’s a central supply for the whole project. You just need to give them the green light."

Fergal touched the scab on his heel. When the pump had kicked in, the concrete flowed out from the tube in a huge gush. Big snaky coils remained distinct for several seconds, then merged into the mass. Their job was to spread it across the hardcore with rakes and spades. Once he had stood too close to the tube and the concrete had welled up over his boots.

"Is it not too soon?"

Shane swung his legs down from the windowsill.

"You not feeling up to it?"

"Of course I am!"

This came out peevish, so he tagged a joke on.

"Sure haven't I got my potassium turbo-charge here."   

"That's the stuff you need to wrestle with the quick-set. That's the stuff."

Shane sat down opposite and selected a fruit for himself. He cut it in two and studied the insides.

"Tell us. What do you make of old Dermot?" Fergal asked.

"Hardy old warrior."

"Do you not think there's something odd about him?"


"Just that he's working with the likes of us."

"What’s odd about that?"

"You know, he’s like sixty or seventy and he’s cracking the same jokes as us. Pushing a barrow and digging and complaining about the boss and skiving off and just doing the same things."

But Shane had no idea what he was talking about and the conversation moved on.


The steel fixers wore check shirts and leather toolbelts. They laid out steel rods in a lattice and clipped them together. The look of this reminded Fergal of something but he couldn't put his finger on it.

"Here mate, did you dig this trench?"


"Tell you wot. You're handy with the old spade."

A fixer in the adjoining trench poked his head up and guffawed.

Fergal had no point of entry to their humour and walked off stony-faced. He crossed over to where Dermot was pinning a mark and took up a pickaxe. He hacked at the ground for a while. This was the detritus of centuries tramped down hard.

"Hey Dermot," he said, and jerked a thumb back. "Do you know what those lads carry around with them?"

"What's that?"


Dermot did not immediately understand.

"You know, the spray, tss tss. Doused in it."

"Ah Jaysus," Dermot said. "That's what it's coming to."

He gripped an upright to haul himself to his feet.

"Them boys will not work the skin off their hands. No more a notion of sweating to earn a living than – puppies. Puppies in a box of wood shavings."

Fergal laughed heartily. This would make a good story to tell Shane later.

"Nip that there," said Dermot, holding the twine taut. "Is it this section has to be done before the pourers set up shop?"

"It is."

They worked together in silence. Stretching and tying the twine between stakes was a break from the real work.

"Awful man that foreman," breathed Dermot as he put his weight behind the spade. "Puts us here on the site and says he’ll be back by next Monday or Tuesday. Neither hilt nor hair of him since. We could be all sitting in The Crown for all he knows."


"I have to post a letter home," he said as the others headed for the cafe.

His hands tingled into life as he walked, his backbone straightened out. The streets were crammed with people walking with purpose. He spotted the blue and red symbol for a tube station. Under his feet, an old shore grate with a royal coat of arms. And moments later, a red bus manoeuvred its bulk around a corner. He took a secret thrill in noticing these little things which reminded him just what city he was in.

He bought extra-large plasters at the chemist, and then, on a whim, he ordered a kebab – an authentic shish kebab – from a shopfront vendor. Lebanese, he noted. The rows of meaty skewers arranged amidst fronds of parsley had attracted his eye.   

Twenty minutes passed and still the skewer sizzled and the charcoal smoke drifted skyward. The side planks had to be hammered into place. The hardcore layer needed to be tamped down on the far stretches of the foundation. And maybe the concrete truck had already arrived. It would be waiting there, engine running to keep the big drum rotating, and the others wondering where the hell he had got to.

If they had a foreman who actually stayed on the site, he would give Fergal a bollicking for being late and Fergal would blame the Lebanese kebab maker and that would be the end of the matter. But with the way things were now, it was a headache pure and simple.


A woman was standing at the entrance gates. She tapped the toe of her shoe on the concrete driveway to check it was solid.

"Hall-ooo-uuu," she called.  She bent her right knee to loosen a shoe strap and shake out a stone. Her arms and face were pale and freckled. She wore an implausible summer dress.         

"Are you looking to see someone?" said Fergal.

Shane emerged from behind a Portacabin.

"Well halloo there," he said.

"Which site is this?" she asked.

"We work for a subcontractor," said Shane.

"Yes, but which one?"

"Walton. No, the company name is actually Sermat, Seromat – something like that."

"You mean to tell me you don't know who you're working for?" Her mouth tightened to one side.

"It's just we never need to use the company name," said Fergal. "It’s printed on the Kango handles." 

He looked about him for one.

She regarded them with her calm blue English eyes. She was maybe twenty-five or twenty-six. If dressed slightly different, she could be a girl they might try to chat up in Tony’s late bar. Someone from the investment company, he reckoned, just scouting around for a laugh.

She walked towards the four storey structure. Shane and Fergal followed her, caught themselves at it and exchanged glances.

"Is this the HBC block?"

There was no immediate answer.

"Do you boys even know what you're building here?"

"Of course we do. Financial services, yeah," said Fergal.

"Is there someone called Dermot Feeney here?"

"No. Wait. Well there is a worker called Dermot," said Shane.

"Dermot ... out at the lobby unit," said Fergal, puzzled at how he had nothing more to say to identify the man.

Fergal and Shane left her gazing up at the empty shell and went around to the rear of the block.

"Freaky chick," said Fergal.

"Hear the way she said 'boys'?"

"I got that."

They found Dermot on his hunkers, pushing mortar into a seam with a straight-edged kitchen knife. In a rush to meet deadlines someone had forgotten to set down a layer of damp-proofing. Now he was cementing in a thin strip of black vinyl to satisfy the suits.

"Dermot. Some lady out front to see you."

"A lady?" said Dermot. "A lady? Did she ask for me like?"

"Yes, she gave your name and all."

Dermot continued to slap in the mortar.

"Is she, like, your daughter?" said Shane.

Fergal's mind balked at this juxtaposition of the woman and the aging labourer. Yet there it was, and Dermot skited and slapped the mortar and grumbled and sighed.

"It'll do," he said.

They went back out front to the Portacabins. The woman looked demonstratively at her watch.

"Traffic peaks at quarter to five. What? Where are you off to now?"

"I'm going for a wash," said Dermot.

She emitted a sound of exasperation. The cabin door banged shut.

"Do you have showers in there?" she asked.

"Showers? No," said Fergal. "Just a washbasin."

"Well I suppose he can't be too long then."

"Where do you have to go?"

"Family dinner thing. It doesn't matter so much if we're late, but I want to get on the road before the traffic peaks."

She walked over to the base of the scaffold. A single plank stretched between the bars at each level.

"Does my dad have to work up on that?"



She sat on the lowest horizontal and studied the boys.

"How long have you been working cash in hand?"

Fergal shrugged.

"Couple of months or so."

"You two should get on some training course. Or apply to college."

"Do you just like, go around everywhere handing out free advice?" said Shane.

"Oh all right," she said and turned away from them.

Shane's stab of petulance surprised Fergal. Never had Shane been at a loss for words, never on the back foot like this. And now the woman's cheeks were flushed as she walked past them with face averted.

"I have to get things sorted out first," Fergal said. "And the money’s okay."

"I suppose it's not bad for a while."

"It's grand."

"Will you still be as happy five years from now working with a shovel all day?"

Not yet, not just yet. Fergal was not ready to relinquish this vision of freedom on a building site, this redemption through hard labour, this, what he was establishing here, what could never be conveyed. He wanted to evade all claims on him, all charters awaiting his signature.

"You make it sound like it's purgatory here," he said.

"I never said that," she laughed. "Why would you come out with something like that?"

Dermot emerged and slapped down the front of his trousers. His daughter walked ahead of him and beeped the door of the car. Dermot leaned to Fergal in passing.

"Will you throw a bit of dust over that job out the back so it doesn’t stand out? Have to keep the white hats happy."

Fate, as punishment for a lifetime of defiance, had taken his son to be a policeman and his daughter to be a schoolteacher. He eased himself stiffly into the passenger side of the car and it proceeded out the gates.

Karina Vidler

Bedtime Drink

She took the carton from the fridge, used the pink mug as a measure and poured exactly the right amount of organic full-cream milk into the saucepan. She remembered to not quite fill the mug. It was odd how milk seemed to expand so much when you heated it.

She turned on the gas and, as she caught its pungent smell, lit the hob with the manual lighter – click, click, click. How long was it since the automatic ignition gave up? Several years.  One of the many things in her life that had just stopped working. One day things were fine, and then suddenly, something would decide to stop doing its job, or die, or leave you. But she had found that there was usually a way round these things, a way of managing without. When the automatic ignition went, she had bought the silver manual lighter the next day in Robert Dyas. When the screaming babies were born but her mum wasn’t there, she had found the answers to her many questions in practical baby books. And when he moved out, she had visited the cat rescue centre and allowed a needy long haired tabby to rescue her from late nights in front of the telly without cuddles. There had been ways of getting along, of replacing. But it had been getting harder. Every loss seemed to build on the ones before, to chip away another piece of marble from her heavily chipped form. These days she needed a bit of help to keep herself solid and relied on the doctor to prescribe something just to round the edges and help her sleep. But she was by no means alone in that. As the Doctor had said, half the population was on some kind of medication.

She reached up for the tin of organic cocoa on the shelf, took it down and lifted the plastic lid. The aroma caught her, as always: that unmistakable, delicious smell of real chocolate. She sniffed at the open tin and breathed deeply. She took the teaspoon from the drawer and heaped spoonfuls of the dark brown powder into the pan of warming milk. She began to stir with an old wooden spoon, tracing the lines of powder swirls on the surface until they disappeared. OK, so wooden spoons supposedly harboured all sorts of bacteria, but she much preferred them to surgical, metal spoons which would scrape the bottom of the pan, when a bedtime drink of hot chocolate was all about comfort and warmth and being enveloped in smoothness which would not hurt you.

She ran through her evening checklist of jobs. Had they all been done? Feed the cat – yes. Take out the rubbish from the swing bin – yes. Lock the front door –

She reached for the jar of sugar and took off the lid. Why they kept the sugar in an old glass jar, she didn’t know. Everything else seemed to have a decent container, but the sugar had to make do with an old peanut butter jar. It was probably something to do with keeping the sugar temporary, not granting it permanent place, given that its primary purpose was to make you fatter and unhealthier and more likely to die of a stroke or heart attack. She spooned the sugar into the pan. She liked her drinking chocolate sweet. She hesitated, then spooned in some extra.

From the living room she could hear that Scooby Doo had just ended and the kids had put on the next DVD, The Little Mermaid. The two of them were all bright eyes and clean pyjamas after their bath. They were loving the evening, being able to stay up late with Mum, watching the videos they usually only got to watch in the afternoon when nursery was over, Mum was still at work and Jackie was giving them their tea. She heard them talking to each other as the movie started up. She pictured them both snuggled under her blue duvet on the sofa, leaving a gap between them for her to return. They were seeing this as a huge treat.

She stirred the hot milk again as it began to bubble around the edges of the pan. She put her hand into the pocket of her fleecy blue dressing gown and took out the small plastic bottle. She needed two hands to open it so she put the pan onto the back ring for a moment. She pushed the plastic bottle into her left palm, forced the lid down and gave it a sharp twist. Click, click, click. It wouldn’t come off. A child-proof lock working against a grown woman. She tried again. If at first you don’t succeed.... This time the lid gave and she placed it on the work surface to the right of the cooker. How many? She knew exactly how many. She was always very careful with her pills. She was not going to make a mistake over the number.

She put the pan back on the heat and soon the milk began to rise. She picked up the pills and let them fall into the pan from her open hand, and stirred again with the wooden spoon, this time vigorously. Soon the pills were completely dissolved.

She poured the bedtime drink out then ran cold water into the pan and left it on the hob. On second thoughts, she took it over to the sink and washed it up, dried it with the red and white checked tea towel and put it away in the cupboard.

She placed the drink on the tray, covering the smiling face of Bob the Builder and switched off the kitchen light, click. She walked up to the front door and turned off the porch light, click. Then she turned on the answerphone on the hall table - whrirr, click, and went into the living room.

As she entered the room, the kids didn’t even take their eyes off the screen. The crab was in mid song and the mermaid was dancing with him along the ocean floor. The mermaid who needed to fall in love to regain her voice. As if love could give and not take, take all you’ve got and then a bit more. Take your children to a new life in another country with their daddy and a new mummy.

She set the tray on the coffee table, beside the plastic plate with its biscuit crumbs and climbed under the duvet between the two of them. She loved it like this, the three of them cuddled together, forming one mass: inseparable.

Waiting for the hot chocolate to cool, they watched the film together. She felt their small, warm bodies against hers and she loved them more than anything in the world, more than the world.

Once the bedtime drink was cool enough, she handed them their plastic mugs and took her own earthenware mug. The mug they’d bought on their first family holiday to Cornwall, when she hadn’t known that his frequent calls ‘to work’ were not to work at all. They all drank the soothing warm chocolate and cuddled and the film played on. The princess was going to find her voice. Love was, in its way, going to win through. She knew that love would always win through. When the mugs were empty, she took them from the pudgy little hands, leaned forward and placed them back on the tray. She snuggled back in. Nothing more to do now. All was peaceful, all was well. After a while, she felt first one and then the other of them growing sleepy, leaning more heavily into her, breathing more deeply. She was getting sleepy herself.

Time to sleep. She closed her eyes and held both children to her firmly, making sure to take them with her, as the mermaid swam towards the surface, towards her new life.


Winner: £200, Publication in Prole 18 in December 2015

Publication on the Prole website

2 x runner up prizes of £50, possible publication in Prole 18

Publication on the Prole website


Jaki McCarrick is an award-winning writer. Her play, Leopoldville, won the 2010 Papatango Prize for New Writing, and her most recent play, Belfast Girls, developed at the National Theatre Studio, London, was shortlisted for the 2012 Susan Smith Blackburn Prize and the 2014 BBC Tony Doyle Award and is to premiere in Chicago in May 2015. Jaki’s short story, The Visit, won the 2010 Wasafiri Short Fiction Prize and appears in the 2012 Anthology of Best British Short Stories (Salt). Her critically acclaimed story collection, The Scattering, was published in 2013 by Seren Books and was shortlisted for the 2014 Edge Hill Prize. Jaki, who was longlisted this year for the inaugural Irish Fiction Laureate, is currently editing her first novel.

Represented by AM Heath

The Prolitzer Prize for Prose Writing, 2014

The winners and runners up for the Prolitzer Prize for Prose Writing have been chosen by our judge, Sue Pace.

Winner - KM Elkes, with Anyplace is Paradise

Runner up - Melanie Whipman, with Marissa's Bike

Runner up - Catherine Hokin, with Now You See Me

Judge’s comments

I was impressed with the overall quality of the submissions. Every time I read, Anyplace is Paradise by KM Elkes, I felt both the throb of joy and the pinch of sorrow. In other words, the author grabbed me by the throat and thrust me into the story. A very worthy winner.

       Although very different from each other, Marissa’s Bike (Melannie Whipman) and Now You See Me (Catherine Hokin), illustrated how the voice of the author could carry the tension of a story from beginning to end. Both are excellent runners up.

       Thank you to Prole for ushering these stories into the world.

Special commendations to The Shoe Thief (Andrea Stephenson) and Weedkiller (Ian Denning) too. I felt these were ready for publication.

The winning pieces are published in issue 15 of Prole, available from our homepage, and will be displayed here in January, 2015.

Sue Pace has over 120 short stories, personal essays, poems and non-fiction articles published in regional and international formats.  This includes not only literary journals in the USA, but also journals in Australia, the UK and Canada.